Page 29 of Risking it All

He wasn’t done yet, either.

“You were right to get on my case about how I was acting, and seeing you standing toe to toe with me only made the feeling worse. I backed off because I thought it was just lust, but Devin beat the truth into me.”

I’d have to thank him later too, maybe with a plate of cookies. Before I could ponder what flavor to make them, he continued.

“I don’t want a one-night stand and while the idea of the future is terrifying, I want to see it through with you. If you’ll have me.”

He looked away, nervous now, and my heart melted. Cupping my hands around his cheeks and turning his head to look me in the eyes, I nodded.

“I will.”

He smiled, but before he could say anything else, I closed the distance and kissed him. It wasn’t like the last one. There was no rush or probing tongues. He wasn’t trying to devour me now, instead, he hummed, content with the light pressure.

It was nice in a floating happiness kind of way. But after a few seconds, I wanted more though.

Inching closer, I trailed my tongue along his lips and grinned when he shuddered. Excitement blitzed through my veins like electricity and I trailed my hands up into his hair. Holding on, I twined our tongues together and sucked.

A full body groan rumbled out of him and he shuddered again, rutting forward on instinct. I opened an eye, glancing down at the tent to his pants, and nearly moaned myself.

He was big, and a thrill of nerves slid down my spine at the sight of him even through fabric. Would that even fit in me?

I clenched, my hormones casting their vote even as my head spun from how fast it was all moving. I wanted to feel him splitting me open, but at the same time, I wanted to flinch back from it all.

I’d never done anything like this before and while it was enticing…it was terrifying too.

Will pulled back slowly, resting his forehead against mine as he opened his eyes. His smile dimmed slightly when he met mine, his gaze following my own before he grunted, shaking his head.

“Don’t freak yourself out, Bea. That’s not coming into action until you say you want it to.”

His voice was rough and I bit my lip, squirming from all the new sensations. “That’s the problem, Will. I want it to.” I said, my tone a bit shaky with desire and nerves. “I just don’t know how far I can go,” I added, watching as a slow smile curled his lips.

“There’s no rush to this. We could lay here and do nothing but kiss, and I’d still be happy.” He shrugged, trailing his hand down to curl around mine. “So the question is, what do you want?”

I bit my lip, tightening my thighs for some friction as I considered him. What did I want? More than I was ready for, I knew that much. No matter what my hormones said, sex was too much, at least for now it was.

But what did that leave?

Flipping back through the dozens of romance novels I’d read over the years, one thing in particular stuck out and I swallowed hard at the thought. Would he want to do that though?

He must have caught something on my face because he grinned. “I like that look. Tell me what put it there.”

I squirmed again, half hiding in his chest now as I spoke through the fabric of his shirt. “I want to taste you…and vice versa.”

I’d heard most guys grumble about giving the act, each of them talking as if it were the worst thing in the world and I braced for him to shoot the idea down.

He did no such thing.

His smile grew wider until it all but eclipsed his face. “That’s a good start.” His hands drifted down to my pants, tucking two fingers under the waistband but not going further yet.

“Do you want to explore that now or wait? There’s no shame in not feeling up to this, especially given what happened earlier.” He said, his eyes open and sincere. I took a moment to think through the fog crowding my head.

I definitely wanted this, and if it became too much he wouldn’t hold it against me. The option to back out was always there and that, more than anything, was what made me nod.

“I want this. I don’t know if I’ll need to stop or not. I’m sorry if I-.” He kissed me again, that smile back and bright as ever.

“That’s fine, and Bea? Never hesitate to tell me if you need to stop.” He turned serious, eyes digging into me.

I relaxed, nodding as any dregs of unease sapped out of me. There was nothing to be scared of, this was William, and everything would be okay.