Page 105 of Rough Fantasy
“Maura?”
“They didn’t know I knew, though.”
“So, you kept it from them. Why?”
“I don’t know.”
“You know.”
“Power.”
“Yes, I am sure a lot of that has to do with the attack. It’s okay as long as at some point you come back out of that shell you always build.”
The bad thing about having a therapist who had known her so long was that Dr. Obenhaus knew exactly what she did wrong. But, then, it was one of the reasons she went to her.
“Are we going to talk about the men?”
“Men?”
“Tsk, tsk, tsk. You think I don’t know you are involved with these men?” she asked, her voice a little lighter.
“Did Conner talk to you?”
“No, but then I would never discuss you with him. Once you turned eighteen I told you that I wouldn’t tell him things. I didn’t tell him much when you were younger. So, these men.”
“Yeah. Hmm, well, it was just a bit of fun.”
“Oh, Maura, don’t worry about upsetting me. I know about going against people’s wishes.”
She accepted that. Dr. Obenhaus was a lesbian who had been living openly for years in Georgia.
“It’s just...I can’t deal with it right now.”
“You love them.”
“Yes. But that’s not always enough.”
“I agree. Just make sure you take the time to figure out if it is enough for you.”
“Okay.”
“So, are they good looking?”
She laughed. “Yeah, and Irish and bisexual.”
“Good for you. Now, make sure to check in with me, but don’t use me as a crutch. You need to talk to the people in your life, Maura.”
“I will.”
They hung up and she stared out over the traffic again. She didn’t hear the knock at the door until the door squeaked open.
She turned and saw Zeke and Rory standing just inside the door.
“Did you need something?”
“We just wanted to check on you,” Rory said surprising her.
Damn, they looked good. She wanted nothing more than to crawl into their arms and seek some kind of acceptance and love, but she couldn’t. They thought she was crazy. They hadn’t said it out loud but they got the same tone in their voices that Conner did. They thought she had lost her mind about the attacker.