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This is going to haunt him for the rest of his life. I never wanted him to have to deal with something like this, but I’ll be there to help him through it all.

And I know Jade and the guys will too.

As for my father... that man is going to wish he was never born.

Chapter 41

Jade

The past few weeks have been hell. I don’t think I’ve cried so much in my entire life. It literally feels like someone reached in and ripped my heart out. I haven’t been sleeping well, waking up every night screaming from a nightmare I can’t remember.

And when I look around, I find myself alone, then I cry myself back to sleep.

I miss them more than I need air to breathe.

When I got back, Leisha welcomed me home with open arms. Then I proceeded to cry while she held me.

After that was done, she brought me down to my room. It was exactly how I left it, and I cried all over again because they cared enough to keep it for me.

It’s been two weeks now, and I still feel like I’m in Hell. Is it supposed to feel like you're dying being away from your scent match alphas? Because that’s what it is for me.

The guys tried texting and calling, but I’ve been ignoring them. I feel awful, but I just can’t. I don’t know what to say. I left them without a goodbye. I took the easy way out. I was so damn scared and let my emotions make my decisions for me. That's not like me. I should have said goodbye. God, I wish I did. I just want them to hold me, to kiss me, to tell me everything is going to be okay.

I’m cold and alone, and I fucking hate it.

Calvin called me the other day, and I did pick up. It wasn’t easy, and it took a lot of effort to keep it together long enough for him to tell me what was going on.

Turns out that crazy bitch, Gianna, was a lot nuttier than we thought. Calvin didn’t go into details, but said she came to the house, started babbling some crazy talk, threatened my life, and held a gun up to the guys. Zane acted in self-defense and shot her.

Then I lost it because I felt like the world's worst omega. My alphas’ lives were at risk, and I was in the air on the way to my own safety. They are dealing with something so damn serious, and I’m hiding like a little bitch. I should be there for them, to try to make things better, to be a shoulder for them to lean on at least.

The idea of them needing me, worried sick about me, kills me.

I knew she had something to do with keeping us apart, and I will be demanding more details when they get home. Something tells me it’s a lot more than just an obsessed woman in love with my men.

I’m just a mess of emotions, and I don’t know what to do.

To add the cherry on top of the cake, I’m currently sitting on the bathroom floor of my apartment crying in Leisha’s arms again with a positive pregnancy test clutched in my hands.

When she found me puking my guts out this morning, she asked me if I was pregnant. I laughed it off because it’s only been a few weeks since my heat. There was no way I’d be able to know this early.

Then she pointed out that yes, I would because omegas have heightened hormone levels, and we can tell if we’re pregnant sooner than an alpha or beta. Something I didn’t know.

She brought me a test, and now here we are. The pure joy I felt when I saw the word positive on the screen was like nothing I’ve ever felt before. I just wish I could have found out while having the guys here with me.

“It’s going to be okay,” she soothes, running a hand down the back of my hair.

“I’m the worst omega ever,” I sniffle. “I left my alphas to fend for themselves, and now they’re not here with me to find out we're having a baby. A baby, Leisha! I’m going to be a mom.” I look up at her with a watery smile. It's the only bit of joy I’ve had since my heat.

“Yes, you are.” She laughs. “The best mom in the whole world. That baby is going to be so damn loved.”

“I’m so happy, but then I feel like shit for being excited because the guys aren't here.”

“Enough of that,” she scolds me. “What happened in Greece is serious. They can’t just jump on a plane and come back. They have a lot of legal hoops to jump through, but as soon as they’re cleared, I know they will be back to kidnap their omega again.” She grins at me.

I groan, a laugh slipping free. “Is it messed up that I can’t wait?”

“Nah.” She laughs. “You do you, baby.”