Page 30 of Of Course, Cutie

Charlie

It was hard to breathe as I walked to my car, and it had nothing to do with the frigid December air.

Holy fuck, Burke was a good kisser. Of course he was. And his dick! I could feel it through his jeans, and I almost started dry humping him like a psycho. My head was about to explode as I slid into my car. I smiled and texted Burke the mind-blown emoji. He replied seconds later with the same.

I laughed out loud and called Matteo as I drove home. For once in his life, he didn’t answer. Things must be escalating with Jonah. I’d leave them alone to do their thing.

When I pulled into my driveway, another text from Burke came in. Cutie, I want you. You do something crazy to my head.

Then another. I shouldn’t even be telling you this right now. I swore I’d never touch you. You’re too young for me, too sweet, too smart, too beautiful.

I bit my lip and smiled as I read the last message. But that kiss, Charlie… made me want to do filthy things to you, and I hate myself for it. You should stay away from me.

Burke could try to push me away all he wanted, but I was more stubborn than he could even imagine. I texted back. I don’t think I will stay away, Burke. I want you, too, and I’m looking forward to all of the filthy things you’re going to do to me.

My heart raced when I pressed send. I took the flirt up twenty notches. Matteo would scream with excitement when I told him about this.

One more text from Burke rolled in. Fuck, Charlie.

Exactly, Burke.

Would now be a good time to tell Burke that I was a virgin? I had to tell him, right? Like, there was a membrane thing that would break my first time, and he would know. There could be blood. It might hurt. That would freak him out.

I definitely needed to tell him.

???

Finals week kicked my butt since I’d skipped my classes so often, so I didn’t hang out at the bar for almost a full week. Burke and I had texted a few times but hadn’t seen each other since the kiss. Now, though, finals were over, and I needed to see him and touch him… and tell him I wanted him to take my virginity.

Burke took his break at 9:30 pm on Thursdays. I slipped through the back gate and was waiting for him on the steps when he came out.

He groaned when he saw me and gripped my arm, hauling me up. I thought he was pissed for a second and about to tell me to go home, but instead, he shoved me up against the brick wall and pressed his lips against my neck. “I thought you were a smart girl, Charlie. You really should stay away from me.” He took my mouth in a rough kiss and slid his hands down to grip my ass.

I gasped because it felt so fucking good and immediately felt embarrassed for making noises. Did sexually experienced women make noises at every little touch? Burke was going to know I was a virgin before I even got the words out.

“Mmm, Burke,” I panted as his mouth devoured my neck. “I can’t stay away from you. I want you.”

“You shouldn’t. I’m too old for you.” His teeth caught my ear, drawing a moan from my lips. “Fuck, I want to taste every inch of your body.”

I felt his erection pressing into my stomach, and a mild surge of panic rushed through me. He needed to know that I was a virgin. He needed to know that I wanted him, but I wasn’t ready for rough yet. “Burke?” I pressed a quick kiss to his lips. I needed to get one more kiss in, in case the virgin stuff freaked him out.

“Yeah, cutie?” His hands were traveling up my body, under my coat. They stopped at my breasts and squeezed.

I tipped my head back and moaned again. Never mind. I could handle rough. If I bled, I’d tell him I must have started my period. God, just don’t let him fucking stop touching me!

“Charlie?” Burke gazed into my eyes. “You wanted to say something?”

I gazed back at him and bit my lip. “I’m, uh, I want to fuck you so bad, but there’s a tiny thing that you should know.”

Burke narrowed his eyes and let his hands slide back down to my waist.

Ugh. I was losing him. “I’m a virgin.”

Burke backed away from me like I was made of fire. He put both hands on his head and took a few more steps back. “Fuck!”

“It’s not a huge deal!” I reached for him, but he backed away again.

“Yes, it is, Charlie.” He groaned and looked up at the night sky. “I’m so sorry, cutie. I just mauled you.” Burke ran his hands through his beard and looked away. “And the things I said to you… Fuck!”