Page 2 of Kiss and Tell

I was semi-okay with the sex scenes when I thought I was going to do them with Banner Arden. I kind of felt like I knew him because I had watched all his movies and might have a small crush on him. It was exciting and fun to think about what it would be like. Now, it’s just a big fat unknown and doesn’t seem fun at all.

But that’s the job. That’s what I signed up for. That’s what I was getting myself into when I told my parents I wanted to go off and be an actress.

Still, the entire night I don’t do much sleeping and instead stay up and watch one of Banner’s movies. He might not want to do the naughty scenes with me, but it will still be such an honor to be able to work with him.

Or so I try to tell myself.

And then the first day on set comes and I’m being introduced to all the people I’m going to work with… and there he is. Banner freakin’ Arden!

I smile and am about to offer my hand when he shouts at the man standing beside him. “She’s a fucking baby! She’s young enough to be my fucking daughter not my fucking sex partner!”

O-k-a-y! Not big on my age.

“How fucking old is this girl anyways?”

I answer before the guy can, “I’m nineteen. But I’ll be twenty soon.” -ish. Like in six more months.

“Holy fucking hell! What the hot fuck were you even thinking? Have you lost your fucking mind?”

I step closer to him and try to keep my voice smooth and even. “I know. I know. I completely understand. I’m inexperienced.”

“What?!” He shouts it as loud as he can.

“I’ve only been in one movie…”

“You’re talking about movies? That’s not… you’re a fucking baby!” I take a step back at the words that are all but shouted at me. “You’re going to be rolling around naked in a bed pretending to fuck someone old enough to be your father and you don’t see a problem with that?! You’re too far gone to realize how messed up that is? It’s…it’s...it’s fucking sick!”

I am well aware that everybody on set, every single person I have met today, can hear him since he is speaking at the top of his voice. Everyone I was just introduced to now knows what Banner Arden thinks of me. I turn and just walk away as calm and composed as I can.

There’s no other way to save my poor, crushed ego. No way to stop the bleeding going on in my heart at the sheer disappointment I feel at meeting a man I had the hugest crush on. And now… now I'm aware of what kind of person he actually is and some of the fairy tale glamour is good and truly dead!

Chapter Three

Banner

I come out of my trailer a week later to find two young actresses talking while leaning up against another trailer’s steps. They haven’t seen me yet.

“I heard he isn’t doing the sex stuff with her because he finds her repulsive.”

“Really?”

“He told her she makes him sick.”

“Oh shit!”

“She cried for hours after. I mean can you imagine? The entire set now knows Banner Arden finds you gross?”

“That’s got to sting.”

“If it got out to the press that Banner finds her gross… it would be the end of her career. No one will want to do any scenes with her ever again.”

“Career over, for sure.”

“Maybe she’ll do porn. She certainly has the tits for it.”

“And in porn, it doesn’t matter what your face looks like as long as you look good sucking a dick.”

I step around the side of the trailer and the two girls finally see me and spring to attention giving me their biggest smiles.