Page 27 of Not in Love
This was pointless. I swallowed a sigh. “Its main ingredient comes from shells, but it’s combined with lactic acid.”
Eli’s eyes shone with amusement; he was clearly laughing at me. Suddenly I was the Rue I’d always been: awkward, lost, unable to decipher the nuances of social interactions or to grasp what the hell people found so funny about what I’d said. Filled with the certainty that the world was in on the joke, and I’d once again failed to keep up. A beat too late. Out of sync.
Yet another unabridged summary of my life.
Except that the Eli I’d met the other night hadn’t made me feel this way, not a single time. Which was the reason this hurt so sharply.
“Anything else you’d like to know?” I asked coolly.
“Yeah. How will you test the efficacy of this chitosan-and-lactobacillus-based microbial coating, Rue?”
I stiffened in surprise. How the hell did he even—
“Will you be using salt solutions?” he continued when I didn’t reply. “Spraying?”
“I . . . we have a humidity chamber.”
He glanced around with the air of someone who knew what a humidity chamber looked like and found none in his surroundings.
“In the adjacent room.” I pointed at the door, half-hidden past the filing cabinet.
“Ah. How many hours?”
“Six.”
“And how will you—”
“I’m here—I’m fucking here, sorry.” Jay slammed the door open and burst into the lab. His green Mohawk flopped onto the left side of his head, nearly brushing his ear. “Sorry, it’s that fucking piece of shit. Matt decided in the middle of the night that it would be so fun to kill me and fuck my corpse, so he asked for that allergen report before nine today. I was trying to finish it, didn’t manage to, and now that whoreson is going to—”
Jay noticed Eli and shut his mouth so energetically, his teeth clinked. The entire spectrum of human emotions passed on his face—surprise, shame, resignation, guilt, anger, and, eventually, defiance. “He is a whoreson. I stand by what I said.”
Eli nodded, as if expecting no less, and held out his hand. “I’m Eli Killgore. From Harkness.”
“Jay Sousa.” His tongue darted out to play with the ring on his lip. “Nice to, um, meet you?”
“Jay is assisting me today,” I said. “The humidity chamber room is quite small, so if you want to stick around, space might be a little tight.” Go away. Leave me alone. It’s for the best and you know it, too.
Eli looked between Jay and me, sharp-eyed. “How much would you like to not have your corpse defiled, Jay?”
“Um. A normal amount?”
“I assume you were going to help log the data?”
“Yeah?”
“I can do that. Why don’t you finish your report?”
Jay shifted on his feet. “Are you even capable of doing that?”
“Capable of using a click pen, you mean?”
Jay pondered the matter. “I guess you’ll manage,” he conceded. “Rue? Okay with you?” he asked, with something that felt a lot like hope.
I considered my options. Say no, let Matt unjustly use Jay as his whipping boy—probably to take out on an innocent bystander the fact that his HOA wouldn’t let him install a garden gnome or similar shit—deal with Eli later. Say yes, let Jay turn in the report, finish my business with Eli once and for all.
“Okay with me,” I said. Pain now, freedom later. Delayed gratification. “Come back when you’re done. No rush.”
Jay looked up to the ceiling, did the sign of the cross, and scurried out as quickly as he’d arrived, leaving me to wonder why god deserved gratitude when his salvation was clearly Eli’s doing. Once we were alone again, I stepped closer to him and folded my arms on my chest.