Page 26 of My Demon Charming
His reluctance does something to me. I can’t quite define it. It breaks down the wall of fear that’s been built around me all these years, from the first time Kevin came into my bedroom and demanded something alien from me.
The more he refuses to do it, the more it dissolves. The more I want to do it. The more my body flutters with sensations I’ve never felt before.
Is his reluctance…sexy?
Neither Kevin nor Mason ever resisted. They never hesitated or apologized. Not that Lucian can compare to them. They’re monsters, and he’s…he’s an angel. A dark angel who’s come into my life, who I pulled into my life. He’s changed it forever in a matter of hours.
Maybe he really is my soulmate. I don’t know. But I do know that he’s nothing like my stepfather and stepbrother.
“I want to do it. I know…I know you won’t hurt me. If you wanted to, you would have done it by now. You’d have…forced me. And if there’s even a slight chance it helps us get out of here, if it helps us defeat Kevin, then why not try?”
He caresses my cheek with the back of his hand and shakes his head.
“I…I didn’t want our first time to be like this. I really didn’t.”
Did he just say our first time?
“You-you’ve thought about our first time? Already?”
He chuckles, but it’s a small, sad one.
“Since the moment I set my eyes on you.”
I nod.
I know what he means. I know exactly what he means.
“Me too. I…I mean, since I saw you, you’ve made me feel things I never…I mean, all my life, even before the Taylors destroyed it, I’ve never felt like that about anyone. I thought I was broken. I thought there was something wrong with me. And then, with the abuse, I forgot all about what I wanted. But you…you make me feel those things I never thought possible. You…”
Should I tell him that? Is it too soon? Is it even real or is necessity making me say it?
I don’t know. What I do know is how I feel right now is true to the here and now.
“You make me feel unbroken.”
There. I said it. Lucian can do with it what he wants.
“Oh, darling boy. I wish I’d been here sooner to save you from these monsters.” He brings his other hand to cup my face and pulls me closer to him. So close I can feel his breath on me.
“Me too, Lucian. I wish we’d met years ago.”
“Better late than never.” He brushes my lips with his thumbs and moves slightly closer. He checks with me. I nod, and he kisses me.
This time, it’s not chaste.
It starts that way, but it doesn’t stay for long. He pulls me close, pins me to his body, and drives his tongue into my mouth. His sweet and smoky taste explodes inside me, and I coax more out of him, teasing him with my own tongue, drinking more of his flavor than I dare ask for.
One moment, we’re kneeling in front of each other, kissing like nobody’s business. The next, I’m sitting on his lap and his jacket has come off.
The more we kiss, the drunker I get and the more my heart races. It wants him. It needs him.
And it’s not the only organ that does.
For the first time in forever, my cock reacts and awakens around company. The few times I’ve pleased myself in the privacy of my bedroom have been the only exceptions to the rule. But now, I’m awake. Awake and throbbing.
Lucian’s hands smooth down my neck to the small of my back. He presses my middle to his stomach, and it feels strange when my cock rubs against him. Strange, but also so fucking good.
I grind on him before I even know it, and he groans into my mouth. Behind him, an explosion of black feathers erupts. His wings materialize and envelop us both, drowning us in relative darkness.