Page 34 of Becoming

“No one wherever you went? You know, breaking in the new club?”

Rebecca sighed. “No.” She could feel Cassidy’s apology in the warmth of her arms as she embraced her. Tell her the truth, Rebecca. Put her out of her misery. “I didn’t lie to you when I said I was leaving for business. But it wasn’t for another club like the one here. I was consulting on a business venture. I just wasn’t able to concentrate.”

“Why?”

“I couldn’t stop thinking about you.” Great. Geez, what is it about her that makes you spill your guts.

“Is that why you came back?”

Cassidy looked so hopeful, it almost made Rebecca smile. Then she remembered she was completely naked and just moments before they were locked in a heated kiss ready to let their bodies talk for them.

“Cassidy, I’m feeling very vulnerable here.”

It literally took Cassidy two seconds to get as naked as Rebecca was, causing Rebecca to chuckle. Of course, that turned into a gasp when Cassidy pulled her close and their bodies touched. Cassidy’s warm skin on hers was thrilling, but there was something missing. “You’re not wearing it.”

She shrugged sheepishly. “I haven’t had the urge to wear it lately. Since you left, actually. With the way I was feeling, I didn’t need it. I spent most of my time in here, but alone. I missed you. I didn’t want to do anything but sleep. At least then I could dream about you. I had no idea where to find you, or if you were even still in the country. I didn’t even know your name. But I missed you so much that I was dying inside.”

Cassidy didn’t just shed her clothes for Rebecca. She stood before Rebecca, tears running unchecked down her cheeks, and exposed her soul. Rebecca, who fought her own tears, reached up captured Cassidy’s tears with the pads of her thumbs.

“I missed you, too. It felt so wrong in my head to want you, but my heart ached. I couldn’t stand being so far away from you anymore. I didn’t think I’d ever see you again, but I needed to be closer to you. You were here, I needed to be here, too.”

“Rebecca.” Cassidy rested her forehead against Rebecca’s.

The two women just let the emotions envelop them. There are just some things in life that can’t be explained. Rebecca, in this moment, had given up trying to explain why this felt so incredibly right.

“Make love to me, Cassidy,” she breathed.

“Do you want me to get…”

Rebecca placed her fingertips on Cassidy’s lips. “No. I want to feel you.”

This is what she wanted. What she had always wanted. Someone who treated her as though she were a gift. Someone who would touch her as though she meant the world to them. So, the fear that crept up when Cassidy nudged her back on the bed and began lowering herself on top of her surprised her. She couldn’t stop herself from pushing Cassidy away even though that was the last thing she wanted to do.

“What’s wrong?”

How do I explain that this position has always been one of pain and submission for me? “I’m sorry. I…”

“Does this scare you?” Cassidy asked gently.

Rebecca looked away, full of shame, and nodded. She doesn’t need this burden.

“Oh, baby, you have nothing to be ashamed of. We can try this another way, it’s okay. I just need you to know I would never hurt you. Never, Rebecca.”

The passion in Cassidy’s voice calmed Rebecca. This is not like it was with Samantha. “Wait, please,” Rebecca pleaded when Cassidy began to move off of her. “I want to feel you on top of me.”

“I never want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable. We can try this another time.”

“I’m okay. I want this, baby. I just panicked for a minute.” She wrapped her arms around Cassidy’s neck, holding her in place. “I’ll tell you if it’s too much. I promise.”

Cassidy hesitated, so Rebecca made the decision for her by pulling her down on top of her. They both moaned at the contact of their bodies. Accelerated breathing and soft whimpers filled the air as Cassidy kissed Rebecca’s neck. The sounds of ecstasy got louder when Cassidy took Rebecca’s nipple in her mouth, and her body moved sensually on hers. All of the earlier fear disappeared without another single thought.

Rebecca’s body writhed under Cassidy. Her hips lifted, pushing her wet, hot center against Cassidy’s thigh. Then she lifted her knee, and her smooth, strong thigh came in contact with Cassidy’s clit. They were both soaked and the sound of them together filled the room with an undeniable erotic charge.

“Touch me, Cassidy,” Rebecca breathed close to Cassidy’s ear. She felt the tremors throughout Cassidy’s body and felt a surge of power in her own body. Even in this position, she could have control. Even when giving it up, she could feel safe.

Cassidy slipped a hand between them, and for the first time in two months, Rebecca felt… whole.

“Mmm, you feel so good,” Cassidy moaned.