Page 45 of Becoming
“Well…” If Cass could move her legs, they’d both be shaking with adrenaline and nerves right now. You don’t need to know this. Of course, that didn’t stop her from asking. “Have you, um, been, you know, celibate this whole time?”
“Oh!” Rebecca’s eyebrows shot up. Wasn’t expecting that. “I, uh.” She laughed nervously. “Do you really want to talk about this?”
“No,” Cass answered truthfully. “And, yes. I mean, whatever is in my head is probably ten times worse than the truth. I guess that’s why I ask things all the time. Knowing the truth is better than imagining the worst, right?” She shrugged. “Look, I’ve been with many women.”
“Many,” Rebecca muttered and received a squeeze on her ass.
“Relatively. It’s not something I’m proud of, but it’s not something I’m ashamed of either. It’s just a fact. I’d go to a bar, pick someone up. Maybe it would turn out to be something that lasted a week or so. Most of the time, it wasn’t. My point is,” she continued when Rebecca continued to frown. “It’s unrealistic to think that the person we’ve, uh, fallen for has abstained for us. We’ve both lived. Maybe I just need to know what I’m up against?”
Rebecca rolled her eyes. “First of all, I’m going to need a roundabout number.” You’re only twenty-five. How many women could you have slept with?? “And, where I stand in all of those women.”
Cass snorted. “Less than twenty? And, you stand above all of them. I’ve never felt for any of them what I feel for you.”
Though twenty was a high number for Rebecca, it was manageable. Hell, she had way more than that in her room over the years. Even if it were different circumstances. “Thank you.”
Cass stared at Rebecca, silently urging her to answer Cass’s original question. Rebecca finally relented under the scrutiny.
“No, I wasn’t celibate. But,” she continued hastily. “Ugh, this is going to make me sound terrible.”
“Doubtful.”
“Ha!” Just wait. “If I had nights where I needed something more than what a vibrator could give me, I would go to a lesbian club. At the risk of sounding conceited, it was easy for me to find someone to, um, service me. It was quick and easy, and saved me from having to deal with the mess of dating.”
“Service you?” Oh, sure, Cass. Get stuck on that part.
“Cassidy. Do you really want me to spell it out?”
“Kinda.” Cass tapped her temple. “All kinds of thoughts going on here.”
Rebecca sighed. “They would go down on me. I didn’t reciprocate, and again, it wasn’t about sex for me. It was merely a way for me to get off quickly and painlessly.”
“Sounds very… boring.”
Rebecca barked out a laugh. “It wasn’t meant to be mind-blowing. I didn’t think that existed, actually, until I met you and you proved me wrong.”
Cass grinned. “You’re just trying to get my mind off of strange women going down on my girlfriend.”
“Is it working?”
“Fuck, yeah, it is. I want to blow your mind right now.”
“Yeah?” Rebecca undulated her hips, and kissed Cassidy deeply, nipping her lip before letting it go. “Do you want to go down on me?” she asked, her voice husky with need.
“Yes, Mistress,” Cass managed to whisper.
“Rebecca. Right now, I just want to be me with you. Is that okay?”
Cass peered deep into Rebecca’s eyes. “It’s perfect.” She easily lifted Rebecca from her lap. “Take your jeans off and sit on the couch, baby. Open yourself up to me.”
Fuck me. Rebecca was learning that Cassidy was great at many things. One of those things just happened to be turning Rebecca on so much that she wondered how her panties didn’t disintegrate from the heat coming from between her legs. She did as Cassidy asked, sitting at the edge of the couch, her legs opened wide enough to accommodate Cassidy. As much as she needed that mouth on her, Rebecca placed a hand on Cassidy’s shoulder while she could still think coherently.
“Perhaps we should get a couple of towels. You know what you do to me.”
Cass groaned. “You’re killing me, baby. You stay here, I’ll get them. Just tell me where to go.”
“Down the hall, third door on your left. Hurry, Cassidy.”
“I’m on it!”