Page 97 of Full Service

Our words are soft and swirl around us, seeming to confuse the fuck out of Silas in the process. He looks almost dizzy.

“Right now, Everly…right now this can only be sex. You’re my TA.”

Well, that makes no sense. None. Not one rational thing about the words coming out of his mouth.

“So, we can have sex, but that’s all it can be?”

He clears his throat. “Yes.”

“That’s not logical.”

Silas’s eyes whip up to meet mine. “How so?”

“I mean, you’re worried about getting caught, right? Like what will happen if they find out we’re fucking?”

He nods, clipped and concise.

“So, what does it matter if we’re together then?”

His left eye twitches and his bottom lip is pulled between his teeth.

“I see your point.”

“Yeah, I have the best points.”

“I guess we’re already fucking, it doesn’t really matter if we’re…more.”

My heart rate triples. “Exactly. More.”

“More won’t necessarily get me fired. Sitting on your dick will.”

“Yeah, but no one is getting fired. We’ll behave. We’ll be basically saints on campus. No one needs to know you’re my boyfriend.”

Silas huffs a small laugh. “Ah, so more is boyfriends then?”

“Yeah. I think so. It makes sense.”

He hums lowly and then pulls me in for a long-drawn-out kiss.

“Fine then,” he mutters. “Time for you to fuck your boyfriend now. Let’s make it official.”

“Hell yes.”

Being Silas’s boyfriend is fucking hard.

He makes me so goddamn hard.

I sit in the biology lecture and am hard. Then I go to his office hours to work with students and end up miserable because I’m hard again.

All I want to do is bend him over the desk and take him right then and there. I don’t want to wait until we’re home. I said we’d be good, and I have been. I’ve been so good. For weeks I’ve behaved, been the most upstanding boyfriend in North America, but now I’m starting to crack.

I’m starting to lose my fucking mind.

I want him all the time.

I want to hold him, kiss him, fuck him.

How can everyone not see how I’ve been feeling? It’s obvious. Anyone who looks once at me can see that I have heart-eyes only for him.