Page 56 of Bought For Us
“Guilty.” Kimmy says. My eyes find hers as she bites her lower lip.
“You want me.” I need to say it out loud enough times that maybe I'll believe it.
“I like you, Cora. We both do. We want something more, if you feel the same way,” she says nervously.
“Do you? If not, please don’t think this will change anything. We want you in our lives, even just as friends. As long as we have you, that’s all we care about.” Zack says.
“You’re not messing with me, are you?” I ask, my voice cracking as tears fill my eyes.
“No baby, we’re not joking.” Zack places his hands on my thighs, giving them a little squeeze and then I break.
It’s embarrassing but deep heavy sobs leave me. God, I’m so messed up, so deprived of love that just hearing that the two people I want the most in the world want me back. They want me. Both of them. I don’t have to pick, I’m not ruining anything. I don’t have to feel guilty for feeling this way anymore.
Zack moves to sit on the couch and pulls me into his lap. “Shhh,” he soothes, kissing the side of my head. “We’ve got you.”
“I’m sorry.” I cry, struggling to take in a breath. “I’m not sad. I’m really not. I’m so happy, so happy I don’t know what to do.” My chest takes a few shuddering breaths as I meet Kimmy’s watery eyes. “For years, I’ve wanted the both of you. I wanted my best friend and my stepbrother. But I was just a teenager, and there were so many reasons why it just couldn’t be. When I left, my biggest regret was not telling you both how I felt.
“Then I spent ten years dreaming about you and making myself try to forget you while I was awake. When you brought me to your home that weekend, I was at the lowest point in my life. I was convinced nothing good was ever going to happen. That I wasn’t worthy of love or friendship, destined to always be alone.”
I’m a mess right now, all my thoughts and feelings coming out in a word vomit mess. “When you came to my motel and told me to come home with you, even though I felt like I was going to be an inconvenience in your life, I came because I wasn’t ready for that weekend to be over. I wanted more time with you, needed more than I ever thought I would. And over the past few weeks, I’ve been falling harder and harder and I’ve been so afraid that I was setting myself up for a broken heart but couldn’t bring myself to leave because I need you both. I’m just so tired of being alone.”
Kimmy leans forward, cupping my face in her hands, tears spilling down her own cheeks. “You will never be alone again, Cora.” Her voice cracks. “We will never let you be. You are not a burden to us. We’ve wanted you here so much more than you think.” She looks up at Zack and laughs. “We may have been a couple of jealous, over obsessive people lately.”
“Do you know how much it drives us crazy when you're not around?” Zack murmurs in my ear. “We can’t settle down until you're with us. If you think you're crazy for wanting us, then we’re down right insane, baby.”
I close my eyes and smile, my face still in Kimmy’s hands. “You want me?” I whisper.
“So much.” Kimmy tells me, closer now.
“Yes, Daredevil. We want you.”
Zack kisses my neck, the feeling of his lips softly brushing against my skin ignites me at the same time Kimmy grazes her lips against my forehead before pressing a kiss.
It’s simple touches, but god, it feels like I’ve been given the world.
“So, you still wanna make that baby?” I ask and we all burst out laughing.
“Right now?” Zack growls, pulling me against him tighter. My body heats when I feel how hard he is.
“No,” I squeak, making Kimmy burst into another fit of laughter.
“Shame.” Zack nips at my earlobe. “Soon though.”
“Soon,” I whisper as a stupid grin takes over my face.
We don’t talk about anything else to do with babies for the rest of the night. We just sit in the study, me in Zack’s lap, my head on his shoulder as Kimmy lays between my legs. I play with her hair as Zack plays with mine. It’s simple, it’s sweet and I’ve never been more happy than I am in this moment.
Maybe this is too good to be true and life will chew me up and spit me out like it always does. But until then, I’m going to enjoy every moment, every touch, every breath with these two.
Chapter 20
Cora
This past week I’ve been on cloud nine. There are moments where I’ll find myself watching them when they’re not looking and wondering if any of this is really real.
Zack and Kimmy want me. I don’t think it has fully sunk in yet.
We’re still finding our way around each other. I share moments like sweet smiles with Kimmy and smoldering looks from Zack. As we pass each other, we brush our hands against the other, just needing to feel each other.