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Hudson lifted his head and spoke to Gino in the same tone he had me in the bedroom. “Come for us, Gino. Give in to your true feelings.”

It was not long before I could feel my own orgasm building inside me. As it hit me, I felt Gino coming inside me as well. Hudson claimed my mouth as I came, while Nico continued to kiss Gino.

I knew I would have to make it up to Hudson and Nico for this. But I knew they would understand the reason I was doing it. I needed to make Gino realize that I couldn’t live without him. That we couldn’t live without him. I wanted to give each one the chance to be a father.

As we came down from our high, I looked into Gino’s eyes, which were now weary from the exertion of the day and night, I pressed a kiss onto his cheek.

“Ti voglio bene, Gino. Per favore, non lasciarci.” I love you, Gino. Please don't leave us.

He gave me a small smile that didn’t quite meet his eyes. I knew we would have to argue with him about this. That his mind was already made up. I just hoped that between us all, we could convince him to stay.

Chapter Twenty-Nine

GINO

I WAS STILL FEELING the guilt of what had happened to Gaby. Even though she was now safe and it seemed as though the baby was okay, I still blamed myself for what had happened.

Last night had been amazing, but it was just making my decision harder to tell. It had been exactly what I wanted: one last night with the people I loved. One lasting memory to get me through the rest of my life. However, I couldn’t let myself get too sentimental about it. I knew they would be devastated by what I was going to say, but it was for the best. I would always be the outsider, and I could never trust myself to look after Gabriella ever again.

We were driving back to New York, and everyone was chatting away except me. I had too many thoughts going around my head to talk. I sat there in relative silence most of the way, trying to work out exactly what I was going to say. I knew if I spoke to Gabriella or Nico, they would just argue with me and try desperately to talk me out of it. Hudson was my only choice.

Yes, we had found each other when we thought there was nothing there. Realized that we both filled a missing piece that we never knew we had, but that was just it. We had never had the deep-rooted feelings that I had with Gabriella and Nico. My best chance was to speak to him. He understood what I was going through and was most open-minded to me leaving.

We arrived back at the apartment building at around three in the afternoon. Gaby wasn’t due at the clinic until seven this evening, and I was not planning on going back there. There were far too many bad memories for me to set foot anywhere near the place again, even if it was with Nico and Hudson. We headed up in the private elevator and walked into the apartment. Nico took our bags, with Gaby, upstairs so she could lie down and then freshen up before her appointment.

“I’ll make us all a coffee.” Hudson walked off into the kitchen to make the drinks.

I knew this would probably be my only opportunity to speak to him alone and tell him how I was feeling. To say that I couldn’t stay in the relationship knowing what could have happened. I took a deep breath and followed Hudson into the kitchen. He was gazing out of the window and turned as I walked in. The look on his face told me he knew exactly what I was going to say.

“You know that Nico and Gaby will be devastated if you leave. Nico won’t let you go easily. He has already said he will come after you in Sicily and bring you back.”

I looked down at the floor. This was so much more difficult than I had expected it to be. I’d hoped I could just say to Hudson that I couldn’t carry on and that I had to leave, and he would just let me go. I had underestimated how much he cared for us all. For me.

“I have to go, Hudson. I can’t stay here knowing what could have happened because I took my eye off the ball. I should never have allowed Vincent to get that close to Gabriella. You can argue with me as much as you like, but we all know that it was my fault. I can’t be trusted to look after her. I let you down. I let her down. Thanks to me, she could have lost another child that she so desperately wanted. How can I live with knowing that it was my fault?”

He walked toward me, and I put my hands up to stop him. I knew as soon as he touched me, those carnal thoughts would enter my head, and he would be able to get me to do whatever he wanted.

He didn’t stop. He walked right in front of me and placed both his hands on my shoulders. I relished the feeling of his touch, but knew I had to hold strong. I couldn’t let my cock rule my head. I knew what I was doing was right, and they would see that in the end.

“Gino, I never thought I would say this to any man other than Nico. But I love you. The night of my birthday, you evoked feelings in me I had never felt before. Powerful feelings that I can’t ignore. I can’t let you go. I won’t. We all need you in our lives, and if you’re honest with yourself, you need us. I know you blame yourself for what happened, but who’s to say that if it had been me or Nico there, the same thing wouldn’t have happened? Or worse. Please say you will stay. Gabriella will be heartbroken if you go.”

I had to stay strong. I had to stick to what I knew in my heart was right. Why, then, did it feel as though it was breaking in two?

I looked into Hudson’s eyes, trying to appear confident. “Hudson, you know it’s for the best. I was never meant to be part of this relationship. It was always meant to be just you, Nico, and Gaby. I will just get in the way.”

He looked at me, and for a moment I thought he was going to say something. Without warning, though, he grabbed my waist, pulled me toward him, and crushed his lips against mine. I couldn’t help the gasp that left my lips, giving him the opportune moment to plunge his tongue into my mouth, kissing me as though it was the last moment we would have together. It was like our first kiss in the club. One that had been part of my dreams ever since. I melted into his body and allowed myself to give into the carnal desires that Hudson seemed to invoke in me. Our tongues danced their duet together as my hand snaked around his body to hold him closer to me.

My mind was telling me this was wrong. That I shouldn’t let these feelings sway my judgment and the decision I had made. However, my heart kept on telling me that this was where I needed to be. That this felt right. That I had finally found my home. A home with Nico, Gabriella, and Hudson. If I walked away now, I would never feel this way again.

I heard Hudson groan as he felt my hardened cock rubbing against his. My heart was trying to escape my chest as it beat so hard, in time with his. Neither of us heard Nico walk into the room until his voice broke our kiss.

“I was going to ask if we needed to sit down and talk. I thought we might have to convince Gino to stay after the quiet trip home and what he said last night. However, it would appear that the one person I thought would be opposed to bringing you into the relationship is the one person begging you to stay.”

We pulled away from our kiss and embrace, resting our foreheads together. A small laugh left both of our lips before Hudson spoke.

“Please stay with us, Gino. This is your home. We are your home. None of us wants you to leave.”

I knew now that I could never leave here. Hudson was right: it was my home. They were my home. I would die an unhappy man if I left them. I felt Nico walk behind me, sandwiching me between the two of them.