Page 103 of Blinded By Hate

I knew this was going to happen someday.

I just wished I had more time and didn’t have to rush Junior or this whole process.

But it has to happen sooner than later.

I nod my head. “Okay.”

Forty-Four

Jaclyn

Present

The flight felt long, especially since I was ready to go back home to Junior.

Hayden is coming back to New York a little later just because he still had some work to do in Italy.

Mafia work.

He’s probably killing people as we speak.

But I can’t think of that. I have to distract my mind by the fact that this is all happening.

Too quickly?

Yes, but it’s happening.

I can’t deny Hayden seeing his son.

So he booked me a flight, first class even though I tried to tell him I was fine with economy. Hayden wouldn’t budge though. He dropped me off at the airport and kissed me goodbye. I already texted him that I landed because he told me too.

Things since Hayden found out about Junior have been weird. It feels like we’re both walking on eggshells around each other. After that night, all we seem to talk about now is Junior. It’s only been two days since I told him about Junior and he doesn’t stop asking questions about his son. I love how much Hayden wants to know more about his son.

He hasn’t pushed me at all to talk about that night with him and I’m glad because I hate reliving that day and having to talk about it.

I feel like ever since I told him everything about that night and Junior he’s been more in his head. Constantly thinking and wondering. I just wish he would act normal so I don’t constantly feel like there is something wrong with me.

I know he’s still mad, and I feel like he’s always going to hold a grudge over that, which is a valid reason but I hate it.

I just wish things were easier for us.

A familiar boy appears in my line of view making a smile appear on my face. I bend down to his level and once he’s close enough, Junior jumps into my arms and wraps his tiny arms around me. He places a big fat kiss on my cheek and starts laughing when I smother his face with kisses.

“I missed you so much baby,” I whisper while hugging him as if he’ll disappear. I smell his hair and it makes me want to just get in bed and cuddle with him.

I’ve always loved how Junior smells, he reminds me of home and after being away for so long, I’ve missed it.

“I missed you more,” Junior leans back to look at me and smile, a familiar sparkle in his eyes that reminds me of his father.

I raise my eyebrows at him. “Really? How much?”

Junior jumps off me and he opens his arms really wide. “This much, mama!”

I widen my eyes and continue smiling at him. “That is a lot of missing me, bud.” I look around and see Brandon walking up to us.

He grabs my bags from me before wrapping his arms around me for a hug.

“Your son is a menace. He would not stop running away from me when we were trying to find you. And once he saw you, he basically forgot about me and ran to you.”