Page 79 of Blinded By Hate
“Damn, he must really care about you?” Nicole chuckles as she smiles watching Hayden walk away.
I look at Natalia, Max, and Kayden. “Really?”
“Just needed a little push.” Natalia shrugs with a happy smile on her face.
“It’s just getting started,” Kayden mumbles before drinking water.
Thirty-Two
Jaclyn
Present
I’m in my hotel room watching the movie, Freedom Writers.
Today has been a long day.
After breakfast this morning, Natalia and I went shopping.
The whole entire time we were together I kept lecturing her and asking her why she did what she did at breakfast and all she kept saying was to wait and see.
Wait and see for what?
It’s going to end in a disaster like last time.
Hayden and I can’t happen and that’s what I told her but she just shook her head at me and continued looking at clothes to buy.
Natalia doesn’t understand the demons that Hayden left me with. He left me with so much overthinking, worse than before. Although while being here, I haven’t gotten any nightmares, mostly because of the meds I think.
Most nights I just replay the memories between Hayden and I that I wish I could forget.
Remembering the good things between us hurts my heart because I know we are ruined.
Hayden and I were doomed the day we met in that alleyway. But the universe just keeps pulling us closer together.
No matter how hard I try, Hayden will always be a factor in my life. I won’t be able to rid myself of him.
Coming to this wedding was a mistake because I’m just digging myself into a deeper hole with Hayden and it will just continue to grow bigger.
I can’t forget about Junior either. He is the priority and he needs to meet his father but God, I’m so scared.
I’m scared of growing attached to Hayden again and eventually getting hurt because with love comes pain and heartbreak.
A knock on the door makes me look away from the TV.
I get up and walk towards the door. When I open it, I see familiar gray eyes that are heated and almost look furious.
Hayden looks mad.
So royally pissed off probably from the show that Max, Kayden, and Natalia pulled this morning.
Now I have to deal with the aftermath.
“You know, since I’ve laid my eyes on you in that alleyway, I’ve never been able to understand why I was so obsessed. Why, out of all people, did I become obsessed over a girl who doesn’t give two shits about me?” Hayden says, walking inside. I back up and Hayden closes the door behind him and locks it, sealing our fate almost. “Every second of every day I think about you. It’s like my mind is addicted to you and the only way to control this addiction is to be with you.” We stand in the middle of the room as energy pulls us closer. “I sometimes wish I hadn’t met you so I wouldn’t know what falling in love meant. I wouldn’t have to be fucking vulnerable.”
“Then why did you? Why’d you continue to pursue me if you didn’t want this to happen?” I ask, a tear falling from my eye making me realize that I’m crying. “Why did you have to start all this?”
Hayden puts his hand on my jaw and tilts my head so I can get a better look at him. “Because somehow the universe wanted me to end up with you. Even if we destroyed each other five years ago.” I shake my head and remove Hayden’s hands from my face. “You promised me you would stay.”