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Home. Having the same issues as Jen and Enzo. Nagging Aidan.
Even if Knox’s voice still rung in the back of my mind like a nasty echo of an old bell, those thoughts made me happy. For now, I was going to ignore the dusty chime because there was nothing I could do about it. Or her.
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The drive to the house went by in a flash. Jen and I sat in comfortable silence, his hand resting on my thigh as some radio station played in the background. Really, my mind was calm, and I had no doubts Jen was behind it, his angry scent quickly disappeared the farther we got from campus. He was now radiating calm.
That scent mixing with the slight purr gave me a calming space. The negative thoughts struggled to take root in my head, but I felt them looming over me, ready to strike at the first sign of a weak defense. Kind of like a shadow flying around in circles on the ground. The bird was obviously nearby, but all I got was the shadow.
“Little bear, are you listening to me?” Jen squeezed my thigh, the movement reminding me we were still in the car. Oh, and we’d arrived.
“Why are we sitting in the car?”
“Well, I thought I was talking to you, but I guess you were too deep in your thoughts, huh? Want to share with the class?”
I shook my head. “It was nothing.”
“Little bear, you can tell me anything. Every thought that passes in your head I want to know.” Jen’s hands grabber mine, squeezing tightly—but not painfully. I squeezed back to let him know he had my attention. “I know we didn’t get to talk about what happened, but I’m ready and waiting to break down all your fears and worries. What Knox said isn’t true. We had decided to pursue you before we even knew you could take a knot. It doesn’t matter if you’re a beta or omega, we just want you.”
“Really, Jen, I appreciate that, but I wasn’t thinking anything. I know I’m worried about what happened, but I’m sort of in this numb place right now. And I really just want to stay here. There. In my mind. Once I open the flood gates, the stress will come rushing through without allowing me time to get on a life preserver. So for now, I just want to pretend everything is okay. We can talk about what happened at the dorms tomorrow, right?”
He stared at me for a long moment as if he was trying to decide if he should push me now but ultimately decided to cave to my wishes. “Okay, but I was having a whole conversation with you while you were not-so-purposefully ignoring me.”
I blushed at the slight indignation. “Tell me everything again. I’m listening this time.”
“Aidan and Enzo are worried about you.” Almost immediately, I opened my mouth to tell him I spoke to Aidan, and he seemed fine, but Jen gave me a sharp look I knew well from class telling me not to interrupt him. “That means when we get into the house, they are going to want to touch you to make sure you’re all in one piece. It’s an alpha thing.”
It might be an alpha instinct, but now that Jen mentioned it, I felt my own need for Aidan and Enzo. I wanted to be sure they still wanted me—drama and all. And then I wanted to be held and never let go.
“But we’re still too newly mated, Koda. I won’t be able to let you go and watch them with you without some display of authority.”
“What kind of display?” I asked even though I thought I already knew. The temperature in the car had already increased, making the seat heaters no longer necessary. Slick appeared in the space between my legs. Luckily, I’d put on a new pair of underwear before I’d left the dorm, but at this rate I would soak the thin fabric before we got out of the car.
“The kind of display where we leave your bags in the car and I carry you into the house, all the way to your nest, and force Aidan and Enzo to simply watch as I fuck and knot you. I need them to know that before they can so much as make sure you’re happy and healthy, I get my fill of you. But it won’t be sweet, Koda. It will be hard and rough and dirty. Another version of claiming for my alpha instincts.”
I felt like the oxygen slowly leaked from the car as Jen detailed what he needed to do to me. Every beat of my heart, every inhale and exhale from my lungs, every slight twitch of my fingers was surrounding me, engulfing me, until all there was in the world was Jen’s words and the reaction they had on my body.
“Can you handle that, little bear? Because if you can’t, you need to get out of the car and let me drive around for a few hours.”
My muscles were coiled like they were ready to be attacked and be bent at extreme angles based on the images my mind kept throwing out of Jen and me together. My omega had no doubt that I was built to take anything an alpha could give. And my beta side was more than ready to experience an uncontrolled Jen. All the moisture in my throat was gone, but I manage a single nod. Yes. Yes, I could handle rough sex with Jen.
Chapter Twenty-Three
I sat in the car as Jen got out. I could only hear the mumbles of whatever he yelled to Aidan and Enzo, but I knew from the change in their stances, they weren’t happy.
When Jen opened the door, he pulled me out of the seat and picked me up, needing to be in complete control. I didn’t object. In fact, I rested my cheek on Jen’s shoulder, inhaling his scent. Even though I wanted to look at Aidan and Enzo, verify they were still okay, scent them to ensure they didn’t smell of anyone else, I managed to keep my instincts under control. For Jen. Not that it was a struggle to cling to Jen. My alpha somehow managed to get me riled up and keep me calm simultaneously.
The swaying motion of Jen’s steps came to a sudden stop. With the breeze kissing my body, I knew we were still outside. The eerie silence had me lifting my head to see what was going on, but a firm grip had me putting my head back down on Jen’s shoulder. I let out a huff of impatience and humor.
“I thought you wanted to fuck me, Alpha.” I taunted him, ignore the warning voice in my head telling me not to push Jen when he radiated this much dominance. And maybe I was more omega than I realized, because I wanted to push and push and push until Jen snapped. Like it was a game to see if I could get him to fuck me before he got me to the nest.
Three sets of growls responded to my comment. An unexpected amount of slick filled my pussy, a frustrated moan leaving my throat when my pussy clenched down to find nothing filling me. The increasing sexual frustration quickly turned to anger when I realized we still hadn’t entered the house—let alone made it any closer to my nest.
Without thinking, I let my instincts take control. I dug my teeth into the tender skin between Jen’s collar bone and the top of his shoulder while rubbing myself against his body in the hope of creating the friction I desperately needed. I had been turned on since Jen told me his plans for my body and every second waiting on him was a tease.
Jen’s arousal was evident in his scent, the hardness of his body, and the way his grip tightened on me. It didn’t help that I knew Aidan and Enzo were watching me. Wanting me. And I wanted to be able to scent my other alphas, to be able to see them.
“Careful, Omega,” Jen growled out, his words a whispered warning.