Page 147 of Redeeming Heart
I didn’t expect Camille to treat me with empathy or any different and that’s why I came to see either her or Jaylin. They say things as they are and that’s what I needed right now—straight answers.
“To be fair, I didn’t expect that to happen and why were you looking for me?”
“Wanted to check on how you were doing since you barely said a word after Brandon arrived.” She answered.
“How did you even know where to find me?”
She shrugged. “It wasn’t the first place I went looking for you and it was only luck that I found you.”
“Why were you wet?” I kept my face composed when “wet” has a double meaning.
“I went swimming,”
She gave me a looking—telling me that she wasn’t falling for it. “There is something called a swimsuit.”
“I didn’t have one at that minute,”
“What’s going on Sasha?”
“Why would you think there is something wrong?”
“You are avoiding giving me straight answers,”
I couldn’t look at her when what happened earlier this morning came back to me and I felt a hot shudder running up my spine and resting on my chest.
“You took it back to your room, didn’t you?” She observed when I didn’t speak.
I didn’t freak out because I just figured Camille knew me after all this well.
“Here I thought Jaylin was the observant one,” I remarked lifting my gaze.
“Nothing happened until this morning.” I started off with.
“Wow, you guys move fast,” Camille remarked and I felt a bit like a tramp when I thought about it.
“Shit, are we?” Maybe we were moving too fast and maybe I should lockdown my hormones until things get to the point where we are ready to take that step.
Why does it make me sound like a nun?
“You and Corbin had sex when you two barely knew each other.” I pointed out.
She rolled her eyes at me. “Which was the best time of my life since I met my husband.”
“Yet, I still can’t get over you having a one-night stand,”
She turned so that she was facing me completely. “You are aware that after my assault I could barely think of sex and always crawl in a ball when I do.”
I nodded and I could never understand what she went through.
“When I met Corbin that feeling of fear vanished and sparks were flying around us. I was in control that night of my feelings and he let me take charge as if he knew I needed to break the chains holding me back.
“I regret it the next morning, but also didn’t because it gave me back my control. I didn’t fear having an intimate moment with a man anymore.”
“So, he kind of came to your rescue without realizing?” I asked.
She nodded. “I never thought I would ever fall in love or get married, but here I am.”
“Here I thought that the only love I was familiar with was the love for my family and friends, but yet, I fear the possibility of rejection because of who I am,” I admitted, but she already knew that.