Page 54 of My Alien Jewel
“N-no…” She tries to move her hips but I’m holding her steady. “Nikolai,” she whines. “Please.”
The song that shouldn’t exist in my body thrums harder, begging me to pound into Z’Ree like a madman, but I resist. I want to take this slow.
I kiss every square inch of Z’Ree’s throat, sucking and nipping at her flesh until she’s squirming and moaning. Then I move down to her perky breasts, taunting her nipples, alternating between gently tugging and rolling them between my fingers then licking and sucking on each one.
“Oh, come on!” Z’Ree yanks my hair. “Nikolai! I want to fuck you! Now.” My answering cry is strangled as she clenches hard around my cock. Fuck, how am I supposed to resist this temptation?
“Well, they say men should never deprive their pregnant partners of anything they ask for, so…”
A smack lands across the back of my head. “I’m not that pregnant and if you don’t let me ride you right now, I’m going to bite your damned head off!”
Chuckling, I release my grip on her hips. “We wouldn’t want that to happen, now would we? Do your people do that often? Bite their partner’s head off, that is?” I tease, holding back my moans as Z’Ree starts grinding her hips down onto mine.
“No,” she growls, “but I think I might start a new tradition. Fuck, Nikolai… I need you. Please…”
I shift until I’m lying on the floor with Z’Ree straddling me. “I’m all yours, Z’Ree. Always. Take what you need, my jewel.”
She mewls, her breasts bouncing up and down as she rides me hard and fast. Capturing them with my hands, I roll each nipple between my thumbs and forefingers in that way that always makes her clench down. As if I’d just flicked a switch, Z’Ree clenches around my cock harder, her rhythm becoming erratic. She’s close, but so am I. I’m holding back as best I can, determined for her to come first.
She does. After a few agonizingly pleasurable minutes. The second her pussy muscles contract and squeeze, those fucking ridges practically massage my cock and I explode. I’m probably roaring in pleasure so loud that everyone on the ship will hear. Maybe on the entire station. I don’t give a damn.
Z’Ree slumps down onto my chest, panting. “That…was…”
“Yeah,” I agree. “It always is with you. You’re perfect, my jewel.” Stroking Z’Ree’s back, I frown when I realize my fingers are running over the excessively pronounced ridges of her ribs and spine. Z’Ree has no fat on her body and very little muscle to boot. It’s my job to fix this, both as the ship’s doctor and as the father of her unborn child.
Father. Incredible.
Then I remember my own upbringing and my insecurities force their way to the forefront of my mind. What if I’m as bad a father as he was?
Chapter 28
Z’Ree
I feel the tensionrising in Nikolai’s body as if it was my own. It pierces through the post-orgasmic haze that otherwise should have lulled me into a short nap.
Bracing my forearms against his chest in order to look up without craning my neck, I see that Nikolai looks troubled. “Second thoughts?” I ask, my pathetic attempt at sounding lighthearted failing spectacularly. Has he already changed his mind about having a baby with the crazy person he just met?
“What?” His frown deepens. “No. No! Z’Ree, please,” he sighs, “stop saying that. I’m just…worried.”
“I can see that. Is it about the baby?”
“No. It’s…about my father. I want to be a good father to our baby, but what if I’m not? My own father is a cruel and vicious monster and since he’s the only father I’ve ever known, it’s all I know. What if I turn out to be as bad as him? What if the cruelty inside my father is also inside me, in my blood? What if I turn out to be a monster, too?”
I silence his nervous rambling with a gentle kiss. “Nikolai. You aren’t a monster. Trust me. I’ve met monsters. I’ve been surrounded by monsters for years and I know how to recognize one.” I lean in so close to his face our noses are touching. “Nikolai, you don’t have a single cruel bone in your entire body. You are the most honest and caring person I’ve ever met. You are a good man. That’s what drew me to you from the beginning. I instinctively knew you were someone I could trust. Someone who would never hurt or take advantage of me.”
Nuzzling Nikolai’s cheek, I rest my head in the crook of his neck. “I don’t know how to do this either. I had a wonderful family but that doesn’t mean I know how to be a mother.” This is the first time I’ve said the word out loud.
Good geodes. A mother. I’m going to be a mother. “I don’t know anything about raising a child. I’ve barely started healing from years of being a slave.” That’s what scares me most. What if I can’t handle it? What if my already fragile mind crumbles and I can’t take care of our baby?
Nikolai kisses the top of my head. “We’ll figure it out together, then. Raising a baby can’t be that difficult, can it?” He chuckles nervously. “I mean, people do it all the time and the kids usually turn out fine. Nala raised her daughter for four years while being imprisoned by an evil crime lord and working as a prostitute, and little Ellen is growing up to be a lovely child. Perhaps we can talk to her about parenting sometime. And Astra is no doubt having the same fears we are right now.”
That derails my thoughts. “Astra? Astra is pregnant?”
“Oh. Yes, she is, but don’t tell anyone. It’s still super early and I don’t think she’s even told Tareq yet. Boy, I suck at the doctor-patient confidentiality thing.”
“A little,” I agree with a cheesy grin, finally at ease. I’m not alone, not anymore. I have Nikolai and together, we have a whole crew of good people to help and support us.
As if summoned by my thoughts, someone knocks at the door. Nikolai groans. “Can’t two people have a moment to themselves on this ship?” he whispers to me, pulling out and cleaning us with some bandages that lay scattered on the floor. “Such a big ship and yet, we have zero privacy.” Tucking himself back into his pants, he strolls over to the door, glancing to see if I’m decent before opening it. “What?!” he barks at whoever is on the other side.