Page 24 of Loving Jamie

I walk into my bedroom and pull on a pair cream-coloured panties out of the drawers and get dressed into my chosen outfit, careful I don’t mess up my hair and makeup. When I'm ready I walk over to the mirror and look at myself, I look good.

It took me a while to build up my confidences after my dickhead ex but I like the way I look, some people don’t like the fact that I wear makeup, or sometimes dress in woman’s clothing but fuck’em. I like it and that’s all that matters.

My men will be here soon so I walk to the living room and turn the television on, the show Friends is on so I get comfortable and relax.

It's ten past seven and they aren't here. Where are they? I know it's only ten minutes but why are they both late? I check my phone again and see no new messages or missed calls, I debate calling one of them but decide to leave it a few more minutes before I reach them.

Fifteen more minutes slowly go by and they still aren't here. I check my phone again, no new messages or missed calls. Maybe they aren't coming after all, the back of my eyes sting with tears but I refuse to let them fall. If they can't be bothered to get in touch to tell me they are going to be late then I'm not going to waste my tears.

My eye twitches as I fight to not cry but one slips out. “Fuck.” And then a few more tears roll down my cheeks, I use my fingers to swipe under my eyes thankful I used waterproof mascara.

I check my phone again and the time says 7:30 pm.Thirty minutes late,I think to myself. I throw my phone on the sofa and lay my head back on the cushion and shut my eyes. A few seconds later frantic banging on the front door makes me jump.

I stand up and march to the door, ripping the handle before I see Justin and William standing there. Matching flushed cheeks and messy hair, William has a fresh love bite on the side of his neck. “You’re late.” I stay standing in the door frame, not allowing them to enter. “Thirty minutes late. If you’re too busy fucking each other the least you can do is text me.”

I cross my arms against my chest and wait for them to explain what's going on, William scratches the back of his neck but stays quiet. I turn to look at Justin as he blurts “We need to talk.”

Fuck.

That doesn’t sound good. That’s why they were late. They were fucking and decided that they don’t need me anymore.

I clear my throat and open the door wider allowing them to both enter. I walk to the living room with my heart thumping in my chest and white noise whooshing in my ears. I sit on the sofa and wait for them to dump me.

William sits on the sofa next to me and holds his hand out for me to hold. I don’t want to hold his hand and as soon as I look at his face to tell him he cuts me off and says, “Everything is going to be okay, trust me.”

I squint my eyes at him, I know he wouldn’t lie to me but when one of your boyfriends say we need totalkyou can't help but think the worst.

I slip my hand into his and I instantly feel more relaxed, he leans down and presses a soft kiss to my forehead.

When he pulls back, I look towards Justin, he looks anxious, and he doesn’t sit down with us. He just paces around my living room so I open my mouth to talk but William squeezes my hand and shakes his head, snapping my mouth shut. I stay silent.

Justin finally stops his pacing and walks towards where we are sitting, he presses a kiss to my lips and says “I'm sorry we were late, baby. It was my fault. We did actually get here in time, but we were talking in the car.”

I raise an eyebrow at him and look at the love bite on William's neck.

Justin follows and looks at his neck, he laughs and says “I know what it looks like, but I promise we did get here in time and then we spent time talking... and then William had to calm me down. I was a bit of a mess.”

I tilt my head to the side to ask why he needed calming down but William squeezes my hand once again, so I keep my mouth shut.

Justin walks away from us, carding his finger through his hair and says “I need to tell you something, so please don’t interrupt me until I have finished. I'm talking to you as a boyfriend not your Daddy. Do you understand?”

Seeing as I'm not permitted to speak, I nod my head.

Justin nods back and clears his throat before he starts to say, “Do you remember when we stayed at William’s place a few weeks ago and you left to meet Jude for lunch?”

Nodding my head, I think back to a few weeks ago when we went to the club to surprise William but I panicked and we had to leave. We stayed at his house and in the morning, I decided to meet Jude.

“Ok so after you left, we were getting ready to write your list of rules but William wanted to talk about something first. He asked me if I was Verse, and I freaked out.” He runs his fingers through his hair, I don’t understand why he’s so anxious but I wait for him to continue speaking.

“I freaked out because I've never considered myself anything other than a strict top. But William noticed something that I didn’t and when he asked me if I had ever bottomed before, I got defensive and we argued.”

I don’t like the idea of my Daddies arguing, it might be selfish but I need them both, I can't choose between them.

Justin continues to speak which breaks my thoughts. “While we were arguing William gripped me by the back of my hair and tugged. Hard. And it kind of flicked a switch inside my head. I haven't submitted to anyone because I have always been the dominant, until now.” He looks at William and all of the tension melts away, this whole thing has gotten him really worked up.

I open my mouth but Justin holds a hand up and shakes his head, “Let me finish baby. I won't go into too much detail but when I went home that night William told me to explore my body by myself and I tried, but I couldn’t do it by myself so I called him.”

I look at William and he’s already watching me; I know he’s watching for my reaction so I make sure to keep my face neutral until I know all the details. The thought of watching one of my Daddies submit to my other Daddy is enough to make my dick hard, but if they are only telling me this so they can end this relationship then there is no point getting my hopes up.