Page 45 of Loving Jamie
He whines as I push my hips to his, letting him feel how hard my dick is.
I pull away when he starts grinding on me. I turn him round so fast he stumbles into Justin’s waiting arms with an audible “oomph”. Justin uses his lips to push Jamie’s mouth open as he forces his tongue inside.
Fuck. Watching them kiss is so fucking hot.
Justin too pulls back when Jamie starts wiggling his hips, looking for friction.
I hold my hand out to Justin and when he takes it, we head towards the front door. “Bye baby, I love you.” Justin calls over his shoulder and when I look back, I see Jamie’s chest heaving as he sways on his feet. I wink at him just before I shut the front door behind us.
Justin and I laugh when we hear a frustrated groan coming from inside Jamie’s apartment.
Seeing as I drove to Justin’s house the day before when we were panicking about not being able to get in contact with Jamie, we get into my car. “Food first, or do you want to go home and shower?” I ask before I turn the car on.
“Food first. I’m starving.”
It only takes us fifteen minutes to pull up to a burger place. I turn the car off and when Justin makes a move to get out of the car, I stop him by placing my hand on his arm.
He looks at me and waits for me to speak.
“How you feeling? This morning was a lot to take in. I know we spoke about it a little bit before, but I wanted to ask again away from Jamie.”
Justin turns in his seat so he can face me. “I’m ok. It was hard listening to all that stuff. I have a lot of guilt over what happened with Jude and I sort of feel guilty for what happened to Jamie. I mean obviously I didn’t know what was happening at the time, Jude didn’t tell me anything which I understood. I just wish there was something I could do to take the pain away from Jamie.”
He looks at me and the hurt shines bright in his blue eyes. Realistically he knows there’s nothing he can do to make Jamie’s past abuse disappear. “The only thing you and I can do is be there for him, in whatever way we can. We need to show him that he’s safe and loved. I don’t think Jamie told us the date Damian is being released but I’m guessing it's soon. So, when that happens, we just have to be there for him.”
He nods his head but doesn’t say anything, so I continue speaking, “Also I want you to know that your trauma is just as important as Jamie’s. I know the situations are different but I don’t want you blocking out your feelings. So please speak up if you're struggling.”
His eyes get a little red. He rolls his eyes and swipes a hand down his face. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Before all of this I don’t think I was ever so emotional. But you’re right. I appreciate you being here for me, as well as Jamie.”
“Wait there.” I get out of the car first and walk over to his side of the car and open his door. I hold my hand out to him and when he takes it, I pull him out the car and straight into my arms.
I squeeze him tight for a few seconds and when I pull back, I say, “How about we go and stuff our faces with some greasy burgers? I have an idea of what I want to do tonight and I need your opinion on it.”
Chapter 25 –
Jamie
Sitting in the café across from Jude I finish the last few bites of my sandwich before I continue to tell him what’s been happening the past few days. “Yeah, so Sarah turned up this morning, freaking out because she couldn’t get a hold of me.”
Jude nods his head and asks, “How are you feeling about all this? I thought it was going to be at least another few years before Damian was released.”
My gut crunches like it does every time I think about my ex walking around the same streets as me. I thought I had more time, but I don’t, because January 16this only a couple of days away.
“I’m scared, like really fucking scared. I know it's been years and I look different from when I knew him,” I say gesturing to the tattoos covering my body. “But my face still looks the same. And yeah, Manchester is a big place but I’m terrified that we will end up crossing paths at some point.”
Jude holds his hands out to mine; his small fingers wrap around mine tightly. “One day you might run into each other and there’s nothing you can do to avoid it, it’s not like you can stay in the safety of your home for the rest of your life. But how about taking some self-defence classes or something? I can even come with you if you like?”
This makes me smile. Jude is a good few inches taller than me but he is such a gentle soul that I couldn’t imagine him ever throwing a punch. “That actually sounds like a good idea. There are probably classes at the gym that our guys go to?”
Jude nods his head, his fluffy auburn hair sways with the movement.
“Anyway, enough about the depressing stuff, how about we get some shopping done? I want to get my nails done for tonight. Are you and Nate coming to the club later?”
We haven’t all been to the club at the same time since the first day Jude and Nate met, so I think it would be fun getting everyone together.
“I’ll talk to Nate, we have no plans for tonight, so it would be good for us all to get together.”
After paying for our food, we walk over to the nail salon. I choose a dark purple gel polish while Jude picks a bright red colour. The salon isn’t too busy because we're able to sit next to each other while we get our treatments. Jude tells me how happy he is living with Nate.