Page 40 of Dirty Secrets
She flipped me off and I laughed, climbing out to wander inside, making sure to grab a Red Bull for both of us on the way up to the counter.
I paid with the small amount of cash I had on me, glancing out the window to see Raven looking at herself in the rearview mirror. She was so concerned about her appearance all of a sudden, and I hated it.
Had she always been like that and we’d just been too blind to see it?
I walked back to the car and handed her one of the drinks, looking her right in the eye as she cracked it and started drinking. “I really want to drag you into the back seat and fuck your brains out.”
She choked on the drink, giving me a dirty look. “What?”
“You’re stupidly hot,” I said as if she didn’t understand me.
“So are you,” she mumbled, taking a long mouthful of her drink before adding, “Do you think I let just anyone spill their demon seed into my mouth?”
Now it was my turn to choke on my drink, a satisfied smirk tugging at her lips as she gulped down more of hers before handing it over to me to hold so she could drive.
“Tell me a secret,” I asked randomly after a minute or two of driving in peace, making her frown.
“You know my secrets.”
“Nah, there’s some secrets girls save for their girlfriends. You don’t really have any of those who you trust, so I bet you’ve keptsomethingfrom me.”
“Will you be mad if it’s something you don’t like?” she hummed, and I looked at her suspiciously.
“Like what?”
“I don’t know. Just answer the question.”
“I can’t really be mad about much anyway,” I finally answered, jealousy hitting me the second she replied.
“I tried asking Zavier to be my first, but it didn’t go well and I changed my mind.”
“Why the fuck would you ask that asshole?” I snapped, calming when she raised an eyebrow. “Sorry, not mad. Just wondering.”
I wasn’t mad, I was furious.
Had he said something to make her think he wanted to fuck her? Had their innocent flirting over the years been more than Reid and I thought?
Had she let him kiss her or feel her up?
“I’ve always had a thing for Zav,” she said awkwardly, letting out a nervous laugh. “But he made it clear that he wasn’t attracted to me, so I chickened out. Sometimes, I wonder if I should’ve just let Ryder do it after all.”
Ryder would’ve been a fucking dead man and he knew it. I was pretty sure him coming on a little too strong to Raven had been what had halted her virginity loss mission temporarily last year.
Sober Ryder? Sure, I could’ve seen him taking his time and making it all about her. He seemed like a really sweet guy, but on a bender? Absolutely fucking not.
Not only would he have scared the shit out of her, he definitely would’ve hurt her by accident while only thinking about himself.
“You like Zav?” I asked slowly, Ryder forgotten about when I focused on the current problem.
“Of course I like him. It’s Zav,” she said quietly, getting that weird girly look in her eyes like a high school girl with her crush. “He’s hot, and he’s really sweet.”
“You asked him first? I wasn’t your first choice?” I asked in disbelief, making her wince.
“Sleeping with you had more risks.”
“Like what?”
“Like you rejecting me. Zavier, I could handle. It hurt a little, but it wasn’t awful. You, on the other hand, would’ve killed me. With embarrassment or hurt, I’m not sure, but finding out you weren’t attracted to me would’ve stung because you’re attracted to everything. Then I’d think about it all the time and it would’ve ruined our friendship.”