Page 121 of Killian De Luca

“Sorry to disappoint.” I shrug.

Malcom sighs before looking at my chest and back to me. “Can I hear her heart?” I don’t hesitate to nod my head. Malcom comes closer and he wraps his arms around me and puts his ear against my chest. I don’t hug him back, I let him do his thing and hear Reign’s heart. I swear I can feel her heart pound hard against my chest. “I hate that you have her heart.” Malcom says, letting go of me.

He wipes a tear and controls his emotions. “I hate it too. I was waiting for death, but she had other plans for me.”

“What are you doing here?”

I place my hands in my pocket and take a deep breath, licking my lips.

My whole body feels like it’s shaking from the anxiety and tension.

There’s only one reason I’m here and I know that Malcom suspects why.

“I want her.”

Malcom immediately knows what I mean, and his eyes turn into slits and his body tense. “No.”

“It wasn’t a question.”

“She isn’t a fucking object that you can give and take back, Killian. She is a kid with organs and feelings. How do you expect her to react when she sees her dad after more than three years of not being in her life?”

I nod my head. “You’re right. She isn’t an object. I know I fucked up but that’s why I’m here trying to do better for her and for Reign.”

“Luna deserves someone who has been there and loved her since the beginning. You weren’t there for the sleepless nights or the constant crying and tantrums, Killian.”

Luna.

My daughter’s name is Luna, just like Reign wanted.

“Luna, that’s her name?” Malcom nods his head. “I know, you’re right. I should have been there from the beginning. It’s not your responsibility to take care of her because she’s mine. You and Lia won’t be around for long, so she needs a dad, not grandparents. I mean that with full respect, I’m just stating the truth.”

“A child is a big responsibility, Killian. They need your attention and love not just for a couple hours or days but forever no matter what. Can you give it to Luna? Can you be both of the parents that she needs? You can not ever just give her back, that’s not how this works.”

“I know. I wasn’t ready then but I’m ready now. I want to meet her, get to know her, love her, everything.”

I’m not fucking perfect.

I know taking care of a child is hard and to be honest I never wanted a child but with Reign, my mind changed.

I would kill for another child with Reign.

“I’ll give her the world if she asks for it.”

Malcom gives me a sad smile. “She doesn’t need the world, Killian. She needs a dad. She needs you. Can you give her that?”

She’s half of Reign and me.

Of course, I will.

“Yes.”

Fifty-Nine

Killian

Malcomand I are in his car driving to my daughter.

Luna.