Page 101 of From Me to You

His despair radiated off to me. Was I selfish for denying the one thing that he truly wanted in his life?

My eyes burned with tears as the raw pain mingled with the blood rushing through my veins. I knew what I had to do to make him truly happy. A sacrifice that would kill the essence of my living soul. I would be a dead girl living, but I had to do it. For him. For my Jay. For the person, I would do anything in this world, including running a rusty dagger down my heart.

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I pressed my finger on the gleaming golden button on the white panel near the huge gate. The red light in the camera beeped before the gates opened up to a twisted driveway leading to a modern glass house that came into view.

I willed my feet to walk forward—each step I took felt like a nail I added to my own coffin. I don’t know how long it took me, but it felt like ages before I reached the end of the driveway. My heart sank to my guts, and my vision blurred as the huge wooden doors opened.

“I knew you would be coming.” White gave me a sly grin.

“I need to talk to you.” My voice was low as I spoke because I couldn’t speak any louder without breaking down.

“Come on in.” She grinned as she ushered me inside. I couldn’t believe she was this happy to ruin my life.

She led me through the large white foyer toward a corridor that ended in sleek glass doors. This place was so white and modern that it made me feel like I was walking through a hospital.

White went inside what looked like an office room and took a seat behind the huge desk.

“Take a seat. I am sure we have important things to discuss.” She smiled, gesturing to me to come inside.

I swallowed, my hands shaking as I made my way inside the room. To my right, I saw a man I was introduced to as Dennis sitting in one of the chairs toward the corner. He gave me a small smile and went back to the papers that he had laid out on the table.

I hesitated when I saw him. Dennis was her father’s assistant—maybe I caught her at the wrong time. Maybe I should come back later.

“Don’t worry about Dennis. He has been informed of everything. Come on, let’s get this over with.” White waved her hand at me.

My heart quivered in my chest, and the happiness that I felt for a moment washed away. A dark, stormy cloud settled over my head as I braced for the downpour.

I inhaled a deep breath. “I will do it.”

“I can’t hear you.”

“I said I would do it,” I said, willing my voice to be louder than a whisper.

“Do what?” White gave me a sly grin as she leaned back in her chair and crossed her legs.

Tears blurred my vision and started flowing all over my cheeks. “I will break up with Jay.” I sobbed, and my knees gave out on the cream-colored carpet that I could hardly see at this point.

A dizzying haze overtook all my senses, and my breathing got more and more labored. All my memories of Jay flashed before my eyes and went straight to my heart. Him painting my walls. Him taking me out to see the stars. Him buying me pink peonies. Him writing songs on my bedroom floor. Him making love to mein the cabin. Him calling me his favorite girl in the whole wide world.

I hyperventilated as I thought about it all. I couldn’t do this. I couldn’t leave the one person who kept me alive.

“Why?” I screamed at her through my tears.

White stepped away from the chair and stood in front of me while she folded her arms and laughed.

“Oh, dear Evy. You know why. I always get what I want, and I want him.”

My body felt like I was dying, I had to tilt my head to peer at her while the tears streamed down my face like a river.

“Please.” I folded my hands in front of me while I begged. “Please, White. Please, just let us be. I am begging you. We love each other so much.” Jay was the only thing that kept me alive. The feelings we had for each other were unexplainable. I loved him so damn much. “I love him so much.”

I hung my head as I sobbed at her feet. I felt like a pathetic loser, begging at her feet. But she had one thing I didn’t, and that was power. Power over the one thing my baby dreamed of all his life. For which I was willing to beg at my feet.

“Please, please, please,” I repeated over and over again while I wailed in fury. I was breaking down at the thought of leaving him forever. To get the one thing he had always wanted. I thought we were soulmates, destined to be together forever. How can life be this cruel to us? How can life screw us over like this?

“I don’t know how to be without him,” I stammered through my crying. “Please, White I beg you. I don’t know how to be without Jay. He is my everything. I would die, White. It would kill me. You know the guys make great music, and they will break records with that album. Please don’t do this for your selfish needs. Please, you don’t know how much I love him,” I sniffled through my sobs.