Page 88 of Unhinged Alphas

Never holding her, never protecting her...

Terrifying.

If I die, I go to hell.

No heaven waits for monsters like me.

Ivy is the only heaven I will ever taste.

The only heaven I need.

But I cannot protect her from hell.

Can I?

I just want to hold her again.

Hold her forever.

Worship her.

Kiss her.

My fingers brush against my gas mask.

Not many memories of what I look like.

Hate my face.

Wear the mask all the time.

Avoid all mirrors, all reflections, all water.

Just in case.

But I remember enough.

Can't press my lips to hers, taste her sweetness.

Would hurt her.

All teeth and bone and muscle.

Teeth so sharp.

I could lick her instead.

If it doesn't disgust her.

Could trail my tongue along her neck…

Down her body…

Between her legs...

Hunger floods my body at the thought.

Vehicle hits a bump, jolting me from my thoughts.