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Why would he have the time limit if he wanted us to have a more solid connection? It could be that I was simply reading into things, and I was only supposed to be his sexual play thing and not something that he would come to love.
He kept asking me to submit and I felt like I was. For me to submit completely, it would mean to give up all the parts of me that continued to fight. That gave up Andy.
The need to fight was me, I felt there wasn’t a difference for me. If I gave up that part of who I was, then I would cease to exist. There wasn’t a way to survive when you gave someone complete control over you. It was one thing to let them have your body, or parts of me for a short time period. When they wanted your soulas well, it meant that you were no longer you. You were a body that they owned. Just a puppet for them to do whatever they wanted with it.
It might work for some people, but the need to survive had been ingrained into me from birth. I couldn’t give that up. I wasn’t sure that it was even a possibility. There wasn’t much more to give him.
My eyes closed, and I gave into sleep. I tossed and turned as I tried to rest.
Dreams came and went. Things changed each time, I began to dream that it wasn’t dark, but that I was blind.
Locked into a closet, I was only taken out to be used for his pleasure. He wasn’t nice like Ian was. He would force me to do things even when I said no. The air was oppressive, and Brian’s face intermingled with the image of others that had gotten into my personal space over the years.
It made me uncomfortable. Instead of Ian saving me, I had to save myself. The closet opened before I could pick the lock. A blinding light hit my eyes and Andy stood there with a hand reaching out to help me.
From the small space, I ran into Ian’s arms and clung to him. This wasn’t quite right. Andy had saved me from Brian, but Ian was the one holding onto me. The feeling of safety didn’t last long because Ian walked up and shook Andy’s hand. They spoke for a minute and Ian put a gun to Andy’s head and pulled the trigger.
The loud bang jerked me awake.
I sat crying in the darkness.
How had I been rescued only to have everything taken away from me?
Wrapping my arms around my legs, I considered calling him. It was the only form of comfort I knew. He would have come to me. Somehow, I knew that Ian wouldn’t leave me to face this type of darkness alone.
That wasn’t an option though. It would just make it harder to leave him when the time came. I couldn’t lean on him to save me.
Andy had always been my hero. Why did the other man come into my life and why couldn’t I have had both? What did I do to the world to make this happen? Wasn’t I allowed to have a bit of happiness?
Chapter 25: Collette
Morning arrived again like clockwork. If someone could invent a way to escape mornings, then they would make a killing.
Nothing changed even though I’d tried to up the amount of sexiness I was putting into the atmosphere.
While I was irritated with his non-sexual tactics in the office, he was a complete gentleman.
“Collette, I need you to be aware that you’ll be in a business setting and there will be no mention of our arrangement. Also, be aware that while you are allowed to talk to other employees, you will be violating your agreements if you mention anything that isn’t within the guidelines of work or normal conversational topics,” he’d warned as if I would just start blabbing to the first person that I saw that he was holding me in his basement.
“Yes, sir. I appreciate the trust you’re showing me.”
He started the business day by having me follow him to and from meetings, taking notes, and looking up items that needed to be researched further.
It was a sign that he was starting to trust me a little more. Although I knew it was more about having a thorough understanding of what he needed without having to repeat it. There was a sense of hope that he might eventually allow me more freedom. Maybe I will get to wander the building unescorted.
The meetings weren’t really that different than the dozen of meetings I’d attended over the years in my other jobs.
Ian took the lead and made sure that everyone stayed on track to make sure his new products were all meeting his specifications.
The new prototypes had come out and the reviews weren’t good at the moment. Not what Ian had wanted, so we were in a discussion with his top three researchers about improving on their feedback.
“These have been tested hundreds of times. I don’t think there’s any room for improvement.” Thomas rubbed at his temples as if it were more than his brain could handle to think outside the box.
Unable to keep quiet any longer, I raised my hand. If there were consequences later, then I’d have to deal with them at that point.
“Yes? Collette?” Ian’s surprise was evident.
“What if it wasn’t about the technical aspects, but the physical aspects instead?”