Page 32 of Loving Her
He smiles at me, coming directly to the bed, before bending down, lifting my body up to his and kissing me with so much hunger it completely takes my breath. We’ve kissed a lot over the last week, each one delicious in its own way. There have been kisses full of hunger, need, and desire. Some have been sweet and gentle, and some portraying different emotions, like happiness or thankfulness. Yet there’s never been a kiss like this between us. This one is completely different from any other he’s given me. It’s electrically charged, instantly hot. There’s a hunger inside of him that’s he’s never let me feel before today.
I drink it in greedily, famished for anything he gives me. Our tongues war with one another and my fingers dive into his hair, tugging on it as I give in to the desire between us. I feel Breaker’s hands traveling over my body, the one holding me in place at the back of my neck, as he commands my body to take what he gives me. His other hand slides under my T-shirt, his fingers branding my skin as they slide over my back.
I can feel the insides of my thighs getting wetter and wetter with my desire. I’m feeling things I’ve never felt before in mylife. Until now, I’ve always been in control. Tonight, there is no restraint, only Breaker’s domination over my body—one which I eagerly accept. He kisses me until my lungs are burning and we break apart. Both of us are panting. The sound is ragged and demanding as it echoes in the room.
“I need you, Indy.”
His words are a statement, but I can hear the question in them. Even now, he’s trying to hold back. Breaker’s doing that for me. Holding back is the last thing he wants, but the man is looking out for me—putting me first. When I came to Tinny’s room and saw her interacting with Breaker and the gentle way he held her close, my heart stopped beating for a minute and then I heard her laughter and looked at the gentle way he was looking at her and everything in me melted. This was what I’ve always wanted for Tinny. This was what her sperm donor was supposed to give her and didn’t. Most of all, Breaker is exactly what both Tinny and I need in our lives. He was giving her attention and love, not because I’m watching. He didn’t even know I was there. No, Breaker was just enjoying being with my daughter. The man may not remember his past, but he’s told me repeatedly that Tinny and I are his future and finally, I believe him.
“Then, take me,” I whisper.
I see the surprise on his face. “You’re sure?”
I nod. “I’ve never been more positive about anything in my life, Breaker. I want you.”
“You know that once I have you, Indy, I’m not letting you go. There will be no going back. I’m not the kind of man who will let you back away from what we have started.”
“Doyourealize that you’re tying yourself to a woman with a lot of baggage and a ready-made family?” I ask him, but for once I don’t have any fear about the answer I’m going to receive. Breaker already knows, and he’s still fighting for this …for us.
“I’m counting on it. You and Tinny are all I want, honey. That’s not going to change.”
“Then what are you waiting for?” I tease.
He lets out a playful growl and my laugh quickly turns into a gasp when he yanks my shirt over my head with a speed that almost leaves me dizzy. On instinct, I bring my arms up to hide my breasts. Breaker immediately shakes his head negatively. “Never hide yourself from me, Doc. You’re a gift and from this moment on, you’re mine. Outside these walls you can be the strong, independent woman who runs her business, takes care of her family and kicks ass daily. In here, you’re mine completely. Mine to worship, to take care of, to please, to love.” If I wasn’t already completely head over heels for this man, I would be now. His words caress me and breakdown any defenses that were stubbornly trying to hang on. I let my arms drop. With my history, it’s hard for me to let go of lessons learned from the past. Yet, when I see the desire and tenderness in Breaker’s gaze, I know I’m safe. “Take it all off, Indy. Let your man see you,” he orders, his voice so gruff that it vibrates through me, sending ricocheting zings of pleasure through my body that all concentrate between my legs. I thought I was wet before, but now it’s almost embarrassing.
I take off my pajama bottoms first, while wishing I had thought ahead and worn something sexy for him. I push the thought away. I can do that in the future. Tonight, it’s just about him and me. I swallow once I kick my pajamas away. I take a deep breath before I move my panties down my legs, stepping out of them, while hoping I don’t pass out from the mixture of desire and fear that is swirling inside of me.
I haven’t been with anyone since my ex. I thought his treatment of me and Tinny cured me from ever wanting a man in my life. But then, Breaker is no ordinary man. He’s unlike any man I’ve ever met in my life—outside of men like Carsonand Cooper who are family, if anything. Breaker is all man. He provided fuel for my midnight fantasies from day one. I just couldn’t allow myself to give over to the temptation.
And yet, here I am.
“Aren’t you going to get undressed?” I finally find the nerve to ask when he just keeps staring at me.
“I’m just taking a minute to enjoy looking at what is mine,” he practically purrs. “Now, sit down on the bed, keep your legs on the floor, but lay back.” My heart goes crazy as I immediately do as he asks. “I like the way you do as I ask so easily, Doc. I’m going to need that from you in our bedroom. Can you give that to me?”
I swallow nervously. It feels like I’m getting ready to jump off the edge of a cliff. I breathe deep, looking into Breaker’s eyes, and I know it’s going to be okay. “Yes,” I answer, feeling free for the first time in my life. I’m tired of being the only one in charge, of doing everything so that my daughter has the life she deserves. In this bedroom, I can give Breaker complete control because I know he’ll never hurt me.
I trust him.
Chapter 19
Breaker
This woman doesn’t even realize that she holds the power to destroy me in her hands. A wise man probably shouldn’t tell her, but I know that before tonight is through, she will. I want to give her everything, and that includes letting her know I belong to her. She’s my queen. I remember something Jeff said about a single mother deserves a man who will do whatever he can to make her life easier and it resonated in me then. Now, it’s echoing all through me. That’s exactly what I want to give this strong woman and her daughter. They deserve an easy, happy life without fear and I’m going to bust my ass to be the man who does that.
A man they can both be proud of.
As I gaze over her body, my heart nearly stops. She’s so fucking gorgeous. I go over to the door and lock it. I love Tinny. I don’t want her to see what I’m going to do to her mother, however. As it is, I’m going to have to be quieter than I want to be. I crave to hear Indy scream out my name while I’m buried inside of her. I’m pretty sure she loves her place, and if we continue to live here, I’m going to have to suggest some remodeling and spacing out of the bedrooms. The thought makes me grin. I yank off my shirt, throwing it down on thefloor. I stop as soon as I make it to the bed, going down on my knees right in front of her. Indy’s leaning on her elbows, watching every move I make. I grin at her, but I’m sure it comes off cocky as fuck, because I can’t wait to have her.
“Breaker,” she whimpers.
I put my hands on each of her legs, starting at her ankles and then sliding them up toward her thighs, letting my fingers tease her skin, before sliding back down. Then I wrap my hands in a tight hold and pull so that her ass is against the end of the mattress. She lets out a tiny squeal at the sudden movement but doesn’t fight me at all. I can smell her arousal.Sweet as candy and all mine.I pick one leg up and begin placing small kisses along her soft skin. Occasionally nipping, I enjoy the way her breath grows ragged as the scent of her arousal intensifies when I get closer to her inner thigh. Once there, I begin nibbling on her tender flesh, moaning as I taste her juices that are there.Jesus, she has to be soaking wet.I place her leg on my shoulder, before doing her other just like the first—except this time, I lick at her inner thigh, enjoying the evidence of her desire and swallowing it down.
“Oh God,” she breathes as I separate the glistening, wet lips of her pussy.
I blow against the sensitive flesh, enjoying the way her body jerks in response. “Do you want something, Doc?” I taunt.
“You’re torturing me,” she complains, her head now lying flat on the mattress as she slowly loses herself in the pleasure that I’m eking out slowly for now.