Page 44 of The Unmaking of June Farrow

Satisfied, Esther nodded. “Don’t take off that locket. Not even to sleep. You never know when that door will turn up.”

I picked it up, closing my fingers around it. “You still haven’t told me anything about why I left,” I said.

She finally fell quiet, leaning onto the counter with both hands as she reluctantly met my eyes.

I stared at her, waiting.

“It doesn’t matter why. That June is gone. Wherever she is, she’s years ahead of you now. The question is, honey, what areyoudoing here?”

The drive from our farm to Eamon’s was only a few minutes, but in that time, I’d managed to run through a hundred different scenarios in my head.

I’d been gone from my own timeline in 2023 for more than twenty-four hours now. It wouldn’t have taken long for someone to come along and find the Bronco, door open and engine running on the side of the road. When I was nowhere to be found, they’d call the sheriff.

Minutes later, Birdie’s phone would ring. Then Mason’s. They’d be asked when they last saw me. If they knew where I was headed or if they had any clue where I could be. Mason would be terrified. He was probably out combing that field for me right now. Walking the riverbank and calling my name out into the woods. But Birdie…Birdie would know exactly where I was.

There was no way for me to be sure just how much she knew, and now I regretted storming out of the house instead of pressing her. If I had, would I have still walked through that door? I didn’t know.

The bigger problem was how I would explain myself when I got back. What kind of excuse could I give for leaving my truck in themiddle of the road and just disappearing? Would I ever be able to tell Mason the truth? Would he even believe me?

My hands nervously smoothed the soft fabric of the dress Esther had given me as she turned onto Hayward Gap Road. I broke out in a sweat when I saw Eamon walking the edge of the tobacco fields. We pulled into the drive, and he glanced up for only a moment, but I could see the set of his shoulders change. The look in his eyes hardened before he climbed the back steps to the house.

My hand searched beneath my shirt until I found the locket watch. The metal was warmed by my skin, the small clasp familiar to my fingers. I was already scanning the fields, looking for any sign of that faded red paint that covered the door. But there was nothing. No sign of that glint of sunlight on the bronze knob or hinges amid the green.

The engine cut off, and Esther let out what sounded like an exhausted breath. “Let me talk to him first.”

“I told you he doesn’t want me here.”

“Yes, well, want and need are two different things.”

She was opening the door and climbing out a moment later. I watched from the passenger seat as she walked up to the porch and disappeared inside the house. It was beautiful against the fields and the hills that gave way to that perfect view of the mountains in the distance.

Here, in 1951, it was a modest but working farm, its roof the shelter to a family.Myfamily. Everything about it was tranquil and serene, but in my mind, I could still see the broken skeleton that existed in 2023. The heaviness of it had settled in my bones, as if I could feel the precarious weight of those bowed, sagging beams that wanted so badly to come crashing down on the earth. It was a place that wanted to take its last breaths.

The mare behind the fence paced its length, head shaking and mane flipping as it watched me with that one glistening black eye. The farm was quiet except for the stamp of her feet and the soft tinkle of what sounded like wind chimes.

Slowly, my gaze moved to the porch, skipping over the rafters until I saw them. The sunlight sparkled as it glinted off a string of silver rods suspended from a wooden frame. My hand found the handle of the truck’s door and I opened it, feet touching the dirt as I stared.

That tingling at the nape of my neck was back. It was the same sound I’d heard in the kitchen that day. The one that had split my head open with its ringing. And that wasn’t the only time I’d heard it, either.

Another wind picked up and the chimes knocked together, sending another throng of high-pitched peals into the air. I walked up the porch steps, until I was standing beneath them.

I was only beginning to work out how the things I’d written in my notebook connected to this place. I could hear the wind chimes just as clearly now as I had when I was in our house on Bishop Street. That moment had been real, butwhenhad it taken place?

What Esther had said about the fraying rope made sense where there had never been any before. The things I’d seen—the things that had happened to me—weren’t hallucinations or delusions or any of the things that Dr. Jennings had written in his notes. They were actual, real events bleeding through from another time.

Voices sounded at my back and I blinked, tearing my eyes away from the chimes. Eamon stood in the kitchen with his shirtsleeves pulled up to his elbows, where the muscles of his arms were corded under the skin. His hair was damp and falling into his eyes as he looked at Esther, but I couldn’t read the expression on his face.

I took a step closer to the window, listening.

“…much choice here.” It was Esther’s voice.

“He’s not just going to let this go. You know that.”

The rumble of a car on the road drowned out the next words, and I caught only the end.

“…she’ll be gone.”

They stared at each other another moment before Esther finally made her way back to the door. When it opened, she seemed surprised to find me there.