Page 81 of Knot a Bad Idea

I hidein my room for the majority of the next day.

Maybe it’s cowardly, but I don’t know how I can face the three of them together, especially after ending my conversation with Donovan last night.

Now that I know he’s the one behind the nest, I’m even more conflicted.

I think of his words from last night.

“Do you mean it now?”

Of course, I want to try a real relationship with him.

But I couldn’t find it in myself to give him my answer after everything that had happened.

I owed it to myself to make him wait just a little to let him know my response.

But now, I feel like a goddamn coward.

Gone is the girl that screamed at him in the garden.

Now, I’m the April that breaks down at locked bathroom doors and can’t even voice what she wants, all while being wrapped in the best nest I could ever ask for.

I relax, burying myself under a lavender weighted blanket and pressing a fluffy pillow to my face, inhaling pure Donovan.

My womb clenches, and my stomach does delicious flips as I inhale his Alpha scent, my thighs shifting together.

My nipples pebble in my shirt, and I realize my body is more sensitive than it should be.

I quickly do the math in my head, then pause.

Oh, shit.

My Heat is due during Kelly’s wedding.

I run the math again in disbelief.

I curl into a ball and groan.

I won’t cancel on the pack. Ican’t. Sure, it might be uncomfortable, but if I can take an emergency dose of extra strength suppressants, I will get through it.

But what are the fucking chances that it happens during their ex’s wedding on a private island?

It would be worse if I told them, because then they would insist that I don’t need to go with them.

I’m not backing out of the contract after everything I’ve been through with them.

I’ll just overdose on suppressants and get through it.

I reluctantly roll out of bed and kick the blankets off my body as I sit up, replaying Donovan’s conversation in my head from last night.

With the impending Heat looming over me, I make a decision.

I’m ready to put all my cards on the table and be honest about what I want.

I want to continue dating them after the wedding.

I want to be their Omega.

And if it takes my Heat happening during their ex’s wedding for that to happen, so be it.