Page 61 of Echoes of Danger
I had to spend another week in the hospital before I was released. I even walked out on my own two legs. The physical pain is all but gone, but the mental will be here for a while.
Steel and I, on the other hand, are best friends, even if he won’t admit it. Last week I asked if he would come over and help me paint my toes since Jacob was on a work assignment. Painting toes is tricky business when you have a belly to contend with.
He grumped the whole time, but he did it. He even sat on the floor and played with Jessica for almost an hour. I don’t know who his person is going to be, but between him and his brother, they’re going to be loved until they pop.
I can’t wait to watch it happen.
As for me, I’m frustrated. Sexually, that is. I’ve spent days trying to pep myself up to ask Jacob if he wanted to have sex with me. I mean, I’m nervous, obviously. I’ve never had sex with anyone before. A specific situation not counted. So, I guess I’m a thirty-year-old virgin.
“What do I say, Steel?”
“I don’t want to talk about this,” he tells me for the second time.
“Do I just come out and sayI want to have sex with you?”
“Not talking about it.”
“Or do I just strip naked and lay on our bed? I mean, he’s already seen me naked a few times, but this time, it won’t be to help me in the shower.”
“Not talking about you naked.”
“What if I send the kids to Knox’s for the night, and I make a game out of it? Like afind the naked woman and get your prize,type of game.
“Woman.”
“Oh, I can buy some ribbon, tie a bow around my waist, and sit under the Christmas tree. Merry Christmas to me, am I right?”
“You’re not going to stop, are you? And it’s July.”
“Christmas can never come too early, Steel.”
Blaze sits in the corner of the Little’s room, brushing someone’s hair but his body is shaking with laughter. I’m not a Little, but I find myself at Oasis often to talk to Steel. He won’t let me in any room other than this one, but that’s okay. I don’t mind. Knox likes to spend time here as well, so it’s a win-win for me.
“Maybe we can spend the night role-playing. I can be the nanny, and he my sexy boss.”
“Already done that one,” Blaze laughs.
“Not talking about this,” Steel says as he hands someone a sippy cup.
“Fanks, Uncle Steel.”
“You’re welcome, cupcake. Now, go to your mommy. She wants a cuddle.”
“What if I get naked…”
“Del…”
“No, hear me out. What if I get naked and put on his vest? He never wears it when he works. Think that would work.”
“Fuck yes,” Steel says. “Now, let’s stop talking about this.”
“Blaze?”
“I agree, silly girl,” he smiles. “That will work just fine.”
Perfect. Plans made.
However…