Page 51 of Forever Found

I did as he asked. The cold stone counter against my bare skin below me had another shudder running through me. Anticipation was only making the need within me build higher.Then Jordan was unfastening my jeans. I placed one arm under my head and looked up at him with a blush spreading on my face. It was bright daylight and I was going to be so on display before him laid where I was. I couldn’t help feeling a little anxious about what he would think of my naked body.

“Talk to me, beautiful. Are you still good with this?” he asked as he paused midway through peeling down my jeans and panties in one.

“I just…are you sure we should do this here?” I whispered as I looked around me again.

“Yes. I want you laid out right here on this counter for me,” he told me, and when I met his eyes they were filled with heat. “But if it’s too much, then that’s okay. We can stop.”

“No!” I cried. “God, don’t stop. I just…it’s so bright and my…my scars. My body too. I’m too thin and…”

“Enough. I don’t want to hear you saying those bullshit things about this perfect body, Addy.” He ran his hands up and down my exposed thighs as he looked up to me with all of the heat still in his gaze. “You’re perfect, fucking beautiful, and sexy as hell. I’ve waited so long to have you laid out before me like this. I want you, all of you. Don’t doubt that, okay?”

“I’ll try,” I agreed, knowing it wasn’t an easy thing to simply agree to. It was hard not to feel extremely unattractive next to this amazingly handsome, sculpted, sexy as sin man.

“Good,” he nodded. “Now tell me what you want.”

“Exactly what you were about to give me,” I admitted with a shy smile.

“That’s my girl,” he told me with a wink that had me blushing again. I lay back as Jordan ripped the last of my clothes from me.

“Fuck. You look like a piece of art laid there. I wish I could paint like Eli, so I could have this moment forever,” he told me as he stood just staring at me.

“You’re crazy,” I laughed, but it had broken my anxiety about my nakedness, and I was able to relax as he leaned in, lifted my right leg and trailed kisses up the inside of my thigh. Even more heat rushed through me and I found myself trembling with need and anticipation.

He turned to lift and kiss my left thigh too, then he lifted my feet, bracing them both on the edge of the counter so they were spread widely.

“Jordan?” I whispered, worried about the position I was now in with my knees up and my center so open before him.

“You look fucking perfect like that for me, princess. Are you comfortable?” he asked as he glanced from between my legs and up to me. God, the way he looked at me and the things he said were just making me even more needy, if that was possible.

“Comfortable?” I repeated as I looked to him with confusion. I didn’t know what feelings to embrace. I was desperate for him to touch me, but also nervous and unsure about being so exposed and open with him. I knew I had scarring between my legs too, from the time I was taken – from the monstrous way those men treated and used me. Could Jordan see that? Would it make him think less of me if he remembered what I was? What I had been forced to do?

“Addy,” I snapped my eyes up to meet Jordans. He had come around the counter and was beside me now. I hadn’t even felt hishand running over my forehead soothingly. “Talk to me. This is too much, isn’t it?”

“I…I don’t know,” I rasped as I slammed my legs together and sat up a little. Jordan wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into his arms, wrapping my chilled body in the heat of his own.

“Let’s get you dressed and we’ll just watch a movie, okay? I’m not going anywhere and neither are you. We don’t need to rush this,” he told me as he held me and ran his hand up and down my naked back.

“No,” I whispered as I pulled back. “I need something, Jordan. I don’t want to stop. I just….I guess I psyched myself out,” I tried to explain, not wanting to end things again. I wanted Jordan. I knew that for sure.

“About what? Did I push too far?”

“It’s not that. I…I’ve done this. Adam and I….before Max, we did some stuff in the shower and I…I liked it. I’m not scared. I trust you Jordan and more than anything I need you to touch me, but…well, it was just so bright in here and I know you said you want me, but how can you see past the way I look? I have scars everywhere. I’m too thin and pale. I probably look like a skeleton,” I scoffed.

“Stop that. I told you before, I love every inch of you. You’re beautiful and sexy in my eyes and nothing you say will change that. Do I wish you had a little more weight on? Yes, but not because I think you’re in any way unattractive. Because I want you to be stronger and healthier. Because I want you to be with me for the rest of my life.

“I love you, Addy. I’m not just saying that. I feel it in every part of my being. You are it for me. I love your body, your smile, how smart you are. I love the way you make me smile, and the lightthat I feel inside knowing that I get to be with you. I love every single tiny thing about you and nothing you could ever do can ever change that.

“I see your scars, but they don’t change the way I see you. They’re a part of you now, just further proof that the woman I get the honor to love is truly a fighter. A survivor. My perfect, strong, sexy as hell princess,” he told me, every word said with passion and such honesty.

I lifted my head from where I had been hiding against his shoulder and met his eyes. He smiled gently, but didn’t release me from his arms.

“I’m sorry I freaked out,” I told him as his words ran through my head.

“You don’t need to be sorry. This is all new between us and I dare say we’ll need to have more conversations like this as things move on. I know this can’t be easy for you after everything. The only way it’s going to work is if we’re honest with each other, and if you speak up if you ever feel even the slightest worry or doubt.”

“That’s just it though. I’m not worried about us having sex. I do trust you Jordan. I know you would never do anything to hurt me. It’s just my own insecurities ruining things,” I explained further.

“Then I guess I’ll just have to work harder to prove to you how perfect you are,” he smiled.