Page 49 of Renegade
After we hang up I close my eyes and start to feel my body being pulled under. I’m nervous for everything that will happen when I leave, but I miss Fitz too much not to go. I think I might be falling in love with him and that scares me more than anything else, because I know if I lose him I’ll lose everything.
I glance at my watch again and sip my coffee. “You know it’s only been five minutes since you last looked at your watch. She’ll be here soon,” Poppy says, pulling her legs under her on the couch.
I glance over at her and grin. “I know.”
“Well, I for one can’t wait until Brooklyn gets here. You’ve been a real dick since she’s been gone,” Ethen says, biting into his bagel.
He’s right I have been, but it’s not intentional. She’s been different, kind of distant when I talk to her and it’s fucking with me. When I left her house just five days
ago, she couldn’t wait to be back with me. Now I feel like she is pulling away and we haven’t even started this tour together. I’ll feel better once she’s here in my arms and I can get her to talk to me.
“You guys need to do sound check at noon,” Poppy says, looking down at her iPad.
I check my watch again. Brooklyn has an hour to get here or I’ll miss her. I get up and rub the back of my neck. “I’m going to shower.” I just need to stay busy, because my head is all fucked up right now. After taking a long shower, getting dressed, tuning my guitar, changing my shirt and eating a bagel, Brooklyn still isn’t here.
Nate comes to sit by me and slaps my back. “She’ll be here soon. Poppy is talking to her now to see how much longer until she gets here.”
I give a half grin and look down at my phone. I texted her a few times since she called me this morning, and I haven’t heard back. Now she’s on the phone with Poppy and I’m pissed and hurt. Now I definitely feel like something is going on with her.
Poppy walks inside and puts her phone in her pocket. “Fitz, I just got off the phone with Brooklyn. She’s not going to be here for a least forty five minutes. So you are going to have to wait until after sound check.” She looks at everyone else and smiles. “Alright, let’s go.”
Fuck. “Hey Poppy,” I say and nod my head to have her follow me to the bedroom. When we walk in I spin to look at her. “What the fuck is going on? She hasn’t texted me back, yet she answers the phone for you? Is she pissed at me, because I’m getting a real uneasy feeling here?” I pace the room, squeezing the back of my neck.
She lets out a little giggle and I frown looking at her. “I’m sorry Fitz. You are worrying for nothing. Everything is fine. I’ve been calling her all day and she just answered and told me she had no reception. She’s not ignoring you, she just more than likely didn’t get your texts.”
I stop my pacing and blow out a breath. “You really think so?”
She moves closer to me and smiles. “I really think so and I really think you are falling in love.”
She walks out of the bedroom and I just stare at the open door. Falling in love? I know I have feelings for her and that I am falling for her, but I’m not sure about love. Honestly, I’ve never been in love so I’m not sure that I would know, but maybe she has a point. Maybe that’s why I’ve been so crazy without her.
“Fitz, let’s fucking go,” Nate yells. I snap out of my thoughts and grab my guitar.
**
We’ve been doing sound check for almost an hour and I’m still not thrilled with it. I shake my head and look back at the guys. They all shake their heads and I grab the microphone. “Nope, still sounds like shit. I’m not sure what the fuck is going on, but we need to have this figured out before tonight.”
“Sorry, Fitz we’re working on it,” the stage manager says and rushes off.
“Well, they better fucking get it right because I’m about to flip shit,” Ethen says, walking up behind me.
“Christ, I don’t know what the problem is. Does anyone know how it went for our opening act?” I ask, looking around.
“No, I don’t think so,” Ralph says, taking a sip of his water.
“Alright guys, let’s try this again,” the stage manager says.
We all get back in place and I begin playing a few cords and the guys join in. I sing and it doesn’t sound too bad, so I figure I’ll keep going and see how it sounds. We get to the instrumental solo and I don’t know what they did, but it sounds great. I look over to the side of the stage and it’s like my world stops. Standing there with a huge smile on her face is my Brooklyn.
I don’t even think twice, I sling my guitar behind me and quickly walk off stage. She meets me half way and I pick her up, spinning her in a circle before crashing my lips to hers. The second our tongues collide it’s like no time has passed, yet it feels like an eternity. I break the kiss and smile at her. “Fuck, I missed you.”
She runs her hand down my cheek and keeps her eyes locked on mine. “I missed you too. Probably more than I should.”
“Oh baby, believe me I missed you just as much, if not more. I’ve done nothing but think of you and now that you’re here I finally feel happy again,” I admit.
“Oh Fitz,” she whispers and kisses me.
“I hate to interrupt this reunion, but can we finish sound check before the show starts?” Ethen yells.