Page 30 of Reckless Abandon
Dark Necessities
The past weekend was one the best damn weekends I have had in a long time. I had a connection with Ryann, a feeling that has not been there in some time. This woman was something special to me, a girl I wanted to get to know better, despite the fact that she was a dancer. I remembered she said that she is only working at The Cave while her show was on hiatus for the summer, but I haven’t quite figured out why she hasn’t talked about her regular show yet. There was some weird shit in Vegas, but she doesn’t seem the type to be involved in that. At least, I hope she wasn’t
On the way back from Laughlin, Ryann and I decided it might be best if I wasn’t at the club so much this week. She told me she only had a few weeks left and needed to make some money before the summer was over and that me being there would be a distraction for her. I had to laugh when she added that she didn’t want to see Ashlynn’s hands massaging my body. I probably would have argued with her a little more if I hadn’t seen on the internet that G had to go back to Boston for a family emergency. I will just let Ryann think she won this one.
After spending the last three nights wrapped in my woman’s arms, the last thing I wanted to do was let my butterfly go. I called Molly and she had no problem staying one more night. For the money I was paying her, there shouldn’t be any problems. I wanted one more night where I knew Ryann’s tits would only be seen by me.
Before going to bed, Ryann wanted to take a shower after the drive home. We walked directly to her bedroom, put our stuff down, and went to the shower. I turned on the water for her and went to leave respecting her privacy.
“Hey, where are you going?” she asked when she grabbed my hand.
“Giving you some privacy, baby,” I responded.
“Nope, not this time,” she smiled at me. “This time I need help washing those hard to reach places.”
Before the words even finished leaving her mouth, both of us were ripping off each other’s clothes off. The slightest touch of her nails sent an immediate spark to my dick. Fuck, I needed to be inside her again. Once we stepped into the shower, Ryann instantly relaxed into my body, and allowed the hot water to wash over us. She had to be feeling my erection pushing into her back, there was no way of denying what this girl does to me.
Twisting her around, I was able to kiss her beautiful lips. God, I already am addicted to kissing these lips. “I need to hurry up and get you clean,” I growled as I tilted her head back under the water and kissed all the way down her neck.
“Mmmm,” she moaned, “what’s your hurry?” She began to run her wet, soapy hand up and down my already extremely hard dick.
“Because I need to fuck you, baby,” I practically growled on her tits.
Ryann placed her fingers under my chin and pulled my eyes down to meet hers. “Be honest with me, Nathan. Are you clean?” I nodded yes. I didn’t even remember the last time I had sex with anyone. “So am I,” she said.
“Are you on the pill?” I asked.
Looking down, I could tell she didn't want to answer. Holy fuck. No way would Ryann be one of those women trying to trap me in a pregnancy for my money. And if she was she couldn’t be that stupid to tell me before we had sex.
“No, I’m not on the pill,” she admitted. It was hard to tell with all the water, but it appeared as if she was crying. “I can’t have kids, Nathan. That’s why Lucas left me. He didn’t just leave me out of the blue. He left me because I am broken.”
“You're fucking kidding me right?” I almost screamed at her.
Ryann shook her head. “No, and I understand if you want to leave.”
I lifted my girl up by her perfectly rounded ass and she wrapped her legs around my waist. “Look at me,” I demanded. “Why the hell would I want to leave you, Ryann?”
“Because I can never give you what you want. So why would you want to start anything with me? Because I’m…broken,” she whispered so softly I could barely hear her. “My butterfly tattoos are for my two babies that I lost.”
“Oh, Ryann, you are not broken. What we have going here isn’t about whether or not you can have kids. This is about us. You and I enjoying the fuck out of each other. And right now...I am going to enjoy fucking you again.”
Gripping her fingers around my neck, Ryann pulled herself just slightly up, and carefully slipped my cock inside her pussy.
“Holy shit, butterfly. You are so wet. You have no idea how damn good it feels to be inside you.”
“I think I do,” she said as she kissed my lips. She began to bounce faster on my dick.
Feeling her slickness coat my dick was almost too much for me to bear. Each time I was with Ryann, it was better than the time before. But this time, feeling her, with nothing separating us was fucking great. I was ready to cum again almost as soon as she put my dick in. But do I cum in her or do I pull out? Not that I didn’t trust Ryann, but I was worth a lot of money so I take my precautions seriously. Fuck it, even if Ryann hadn’t explained to me that she couldn’t get pregnant the only place I would want to be cumming is inside my girl’s pussy.
We both laid there that night obviously restless in our thoughts. I was planning on telling her about Ella before she arrived the following week, but really what was I supposed to say now? Sorry you can’t have kids, but hey I have a nine-year-old daughter. Something about that seemed just a bit coldhearted. Instead I pulled Ryann in closer and held her tight
“Butterflies represent pregnancy loss. I have two angel babies and my tattoos are for each one,” Ryann quietly confessed into my chest. I pulled her in tighter. “We lost the first baby eight weeks into the pregnancy. That’s why this one is pink and blue,” she continued and pointed to the top butterfly. “And the day we were to find out the sex of our second baby, we found she had also already gone to heaven. That’s the pink one here.”
“Thank you for sharing with me. I have a serious question. Now that I know the meanings, is it still ok that I call you butterfly? The last thing I want to do is upset you, beautiful.” I asked her.
She leaned up and began to place kisses along my jawline. “I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
I pulled Ryann on top of me so that we were face to face, bodies pressing tightly against each other. “Ryann, I'm going to do everything I can to make you feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. I hate that asshole forever making you feel like you were broken. I'm going to fuck you again just to show you how not broken you really are.”