Page 129 of Nights At Sea
He’ll never forgive me for this. Which is why he must never find me.
But then, this will have been the last time I saw him… ever.
The tears are flowing like a river now… I just can’t stop them! My whole body is shaking with my anguish.
Was it only this morning Tiero held me so tenderly in his arms? It might as well have been lifetimes ago.
Love sucks.
Who in their right mind would put themselves through the agony of a broken heart voluntarily?
I’m ready to give up. I never want to feel like this again. Love isn’t worth this gut-wrenching pain.
I’m going to stay away from men from now on. Maybe Zoe is onto something. Maybe use them and lose them really is the way to go.
Who am I kidding? That would never work for me.
No man is worth this. I can do this life thing on my own.
I’ll get a dog or two… they’re far more reliable and a whole lot easier.
Would things have been different if I had agreed to stay longer the first time Tiero asked me? Would our relationship have developed naturally, instead of him thrusting his will on me? Would we be together now?
I’ve got so much love in my heart for this man, even after such a short time knowing him.
Ha, knowing him, I think bitterly.
I didn’t know him. I didn’t know him at all and all the things he’s capable of.
I feel faint again. It’s probably lack of food, all the exertion of running and the drop of adrenaline in my blood. I should find something to eat, but I lack the strength to get up.
All I want to do is close my eyes and drift away. Drift away to a place where there isn’t heartbreak and loss, danger and uncertainty.
I miss my parents more than ever. They would know what to do if they were here.
And Rhia? She always has a solution. What if I never see her again? I can’t risk her life by contacting her.
I cry harder. Everyone I care about is gone.
And above all, I can’t imagine my life without Tiero in it.
Yet that’s exactly what I’m hoping to achieve by running away. The dichotomy makes me laugh. It’s an ironic, sad kind of laugh.
God, I must look like I just escaped from a mental institution. I feel ripe for one. Good thing no one can see me right now.
Memories of our island time together choose this moment to replay in my head, and the realization hits me like a ton of bricks.
Never again will I feel Tiero’s strong arms hold me, or his warm hands touch my body.
Never again will I feel the heat of his lips on mine, the firmness of his tongue licking and caressing my skin.
And let’s not even mention his perfect cock, and the way it fills and stretches me so right. He has ruined me for any other man.
Incredible sadness fills me, and my crying turns into body-shaking sobs.
The pain… it’s too much!
This is no ordinary heartbreak. I might never recover from this.