Page 64 of Tutor With Benefits
“Same,” Taylor agrees. “I don’t know what it is about you, but you can make me cum harder than I ever have.”
“I think that’s the truth across the board,” I say.
We settle in around the room and Zach puts something on the TV. But none of us are paying any attention to it. I feel like we all know we have to talk, but no one is sure how to bring up what we need to talk about, and no one wants to say the wrong thing, either.
This is a sensitive topic, and we know we have to be careful not to say or do anything that sounds accusatory or clingy.
Then again, none of us have ever been in this situation before, so I’m not sure how we’re going to approach this without making it seem like we’re accusing her of doing something wrong.
Thankfully, Zach is the one to take charge.
“So, we’re really glad you’re here,” he says. “It really sucked these past couple weeks with you spending all your time with Johnny, we pretty much felt like you forgot all about us.”
“Of course not!” she says. “I just wasn’t sure if you wanted to hear from me. You didn’t say anything about the chemistry, so I figured you were doing fine and you didn’t really care about what was going on with me and my new relationship.”
“Just the opposite, actually,” Taylor tells her. “We spent most of the week pissed off that you ran off with that guy and ditched us like chopped liver. I know that wasn’t what you meant to do, but it also showed us that we didn’t realize just how much we had fallen for you until you were gone.”
“What?” Tori asks, looking from each of us to the next as though she’s not sure she’s heard correctly.
“I love you, Tori,” Taylor says.
“I love you, too,” I chime in.
“And I love you, too,” Zach says. “I didn’t know that was even possible before you and Johnny went out, but once that happened, we were all in agreement that we have fallen in love with you. And moving forward, no matter what happens, we don’t want it to go back to the way it was this past couple weeks.”
Tori nods, and there were tears in her eyes.
“I love you, too,” she says. “All three of you. I couldn’t stop thinking about you. Every time Johnny would touch me or kiss me or hold me, all I could think about was how it felt to me when one of you would do it, and there was a big part of me that wondered if I was making a mistake, being with him after not being sure I wanted to anymore.”
“You know it’s okay to change your mind about that shit, right?” I ask her. “Just because you thought you wanted to be with him doesn’t mean that it was meant to be.”
“I know,” she says. “But I also don’t want to give up on this yet. I mean, what if this is the person I want to be with, and I just don’t know what to think of it now that it’s really happening? We’ve only been going out for a week or two, it’s not like we can know for sure at this point.”
I want to tell her I know for sure, but I bite my tongue. We have to be careful, I know that.
“Just don’t run off and forget about us, okay?” Zach says. “Because I can tell you, there aren’t many women in my life I have fallen in love with, and you are one of them. I don’t want to lose you.”
“None of us do,” Taylor says.
“And I don’t want to lose you guys either,” she tells us. “I really do love you all dearly. I mean that.”
“To us!” I say as I hold up my cup of coffee. I feel it’s best to cut this conversation short before we get too deep. We’ve touched on our feelings, and that’s good enough for the night.
I’m glad when the rest follow suit.
None of us want to get too much out there and have it backfire, so we’re going to take it easy.
But, I have to admit, I have a feeling of hope in my chest that hasn’t been there in nearly two weeks, and I cling to it with all I have in me. Hope is all I need to feel like we’re going to be okay, the four of us.
And with a quick glance to the others in the room, I know both Taylor and Zach are thinking the same thing.
Maybe we can make this work for us yet.
And maybe, just maybe, the four of us will be together.
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