Page 11 of Where Is the Love

I learned a valuable lesson, fucking around with him: A nigga that bragged on his shit usually pissed on his balls. I barely even felt that shit, and I was a damn virgin.How the fuck?My cherry didn’t get popped until I found some shit worth being called a dick, and that was in college. Without my parents’ watchful eyes, I fucked around a lot. Thankfully, Joseph didn’t find out about me when I was at home.

In small towns, everyone knew everybody, but Joseph was an outsider. Nobody really talked to him like that, except at church. If they knew anything about my behavior, they didn’t tell. They probably just gossiped about me. Had Joseph known I was no longer a virgin, he probably would have beat my ass then made sure I didn’t leave the house.

Without a word, Brix turned back to the stove and started plating our breakfast as I stared at his ass, imagining myself pulling him deeper inside of me. I closed my eyes, trying to rid myself of the thoughts, then pulled my phone from my pocket. I saw the messages still there and decided to read them to get my mind off Brix slow fucking me. When I saw Decklan’s name, I rolled my eyes but still opened his message to see what he wanted.

Hey, Jess. I hope you’ve had a good day, baby. I miss you. I popped up at your place and you weren’t there. When you get back, please call me. I need to talk to you.

I couldn’t believe he’d popped up at my house. His ass had plenty of audacity. Usually, it was muthafuckas that fucked up that had all the audacity in the world. I went to the next message to see what else he possibly had to say after that.

Are you in Nome? I thought I heard Nesha saying something about you being in town. Maybe I can come there to talk to you. Please, Jess. I need you. I love you.

The tremble made its way through my body. Anger was coursing through me because I wanted him to stop trying so hard. I was done. Despite how much I loved him, I knew that he was no good for me. He didn’t try to rectify his behavior until I got tired of dealing with the shit. I responded to him as my face twitched in anger.

Do not show up here. If you do, your feelings gon’ get hurt.

As petty as I was, I would be all over Brix in his face and not give a fuck… just like I didn’t give a fuck when Nate was trying to be up in my sauce. Decklan was no longer my concern; that included his pitiful ass feelings. I had two more messages. One was from Nate. I’d looked at my schedule and had agreed to go to the game in two weeks. I’d just be getting back from a shoot in the Bahamas.

I opened his message to see,Hey, beautiful. Can you call me when you have time?

That was last night. I was here and had fallen asleep. My last message was from my mother. I didn’t bother reading it since we’d already talked. I looked up at Brix as he set a plate of food in front of me. When I saw shrimp and grits, that shit caught me off guard. I stared up at him. “Damn. You can cook now?”

“Hell yeah, girl. I’m a jack of all trades now. I took a few culinary classes. Fuck wit’cho boy.”

I chuckled and glanced at my phone again. “Did you put my phone on vibrate last night?”

He sat across from me and bit his bottom lip. “Yep. You was knocked the hell out, and I wanted you to rest. That shit was going off back-to-back. You were exhausted, baby.”

He grabbed my hand and began blessing our food while I stared at him in awe. When he was done, he stared up at me. “Eat up, baby.”

My lips parted, and I grabbed my fork to taste this meal. It looked and smelled amazing. I just hoped it tasted as good as it looked. After my first forkful, I closed my eyes and moaned. It was so damn good. When I opened my eyes, Brix had scooted closer to me. He grabbed my fork and began feeding me more as he stared into my eyes. This shit was intense. After swallowing, I said, “Brix.”

“Mm hmm.”

“Are you trying to seduce me?”

“Do you feel like you’re being seduced? I mean, all that don’t feel necessary to me since you already receptive, baby. If my mama wasn’t up there sleeping, I would have you bouncing all over this dick right now, screaming my name.” He scooted closer to me and said in a low voice near my ear, “Then I’d slow fuck you while staring into your eyes so I could get acquainted with your soul. Mm. Tell me you wouldn’t let me do that shit.”

I did my best to remain quiet like he wasn’t affecting me as much as he was, but that shit was impossible. “Brix, it feels like I’m being seduced and teased at the same time. Don’t fucking play with me. Your mama will walk in here and find your dick in my mouth.”

I closed my eyes, imagining myself digesting all his descendants. “Fuck, girl. Keep fucking with me and that’s where you gon’ find me… balls deep in your throat, fucking your esophagus up. I wanna wait until your heart is right though. I want you to fall in love with more than my dick.”

When I heard footsteps, I cleared my throat and scooted away from him. It was a good thing he was still living here with his mother. Had he not been, we would have fucked last night, and my heart would have regretted it. A fuck was a fuck, and emotions usually didn’t matter. However, Brix wanted more. He deserved more than what I had to offer right now, so what I had to offer would be off the table until I felt the same things he did.

CHAPTERFOUR

BRIXTON

I stood in the mirror and made sure I looked good. I’d worn some Rockstar jeans, a long-sleeved printed shirt I’d gotten from Cavender’s, and a nice pair of boots. I was ready as hell to have fun at the Henderson family party. I was happy Mrs. Jenahra invited me, because I couldn’t wait to see Jessica again. After yesterday morning, I didn’t talk to her anymore until I sent a text saying goodnight.

Kenny had come over, and we’d worked all day on that fence. Jasper had stopped by on his way home and helped out as well. It helped that I had someone running the auger so I could set the poles. Since we didn’t finish, Kenny said he would bring their auger next time. It would save us a lot of time. Being that I was busy, I really didn’t have time to chase down Jess anyway. When I texted her, she only saidgood nightin response.

I hopped in my Dodge and made my way to their family barn right up the highway from my grandparents’ house. I guess I should call it my mother’s house since it had been passed down to her. When I got to the barn, the party was already in full swing. I didn’t think I was that late, but I guess I was. The zydeco music was blasting, and I could hear people talking over it. When I walked through the door, Kenny noticed me right away.

Jasper and Storm followed behind him, Storm with his usual frown. “What’s up? I see you made it,” Kenny said.

“Yep. I couldn’t dare turn down an invitation to turn up with the Hendersons.”

Storm’s face eased up as he said, “Hell naw, you couldn’t. I’m glad you gon’ be here for my announcement.”