Page 35 of Where Is the Love
I stepped closer to her again and tipped her head up by her chin and laid my lips on hers. My hands went to both sides of her face and held her to me like she was gonna get away. Truth was, it felt like she was. I didn’t want to lose her because I couldn’t control my emotions. She left her last man because of the distance. “Jess, why are you apologizing?”
“Because I was gonna say something, but I thought better of it.”
“Can you stay with me tonight, baby? I know it’s my mom’s place. Soon enough I’ll have my own, but I need to hold you. I need you close.”
She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. “Are you sure? I don’t want you to ask me to come over because it’s what you think I want.”
“I asked because it’s what I want. Is it what you want though?”
She licked her lips then opened her eyes. “Yeah.”
I opened her door for her, and she got inside. I walked around and got in the car with her since I’d walked down here, and she drove to my mother’s house… her house for the next thirty days anyway. We got out and made our way inside. After locking the door, I grabbed her hand and led her to my bedroom. As soon as I closed the door, she came out of her clothes, leaving her undergarments on. I didn’t even think she was trying to be sexy, but shit if she didn’t have me about to blast off just from staring at her body.
“Jess, you so fucking fine. Always have been. I don’t think I can ever say that shit enough.”
“What makes you think so, Brix? I have rolls everywhere and stretch marks on my sides. I’m a big girl, and maybe that’s why I can’t find love. ’Cause where is it?”
I frowned slightly. Jess was always confident, so this threw me for a loop. That was when I remembered she was high. Maybe these were her constant thoughts. She was good at hiding shit. “Baby, just because you were with a couple of niggas that didn’t recognize your worth doesn’t mean love is hiding from you. Love is right here in front of you. Your curves are so fucking attractive. Rolls and stretch marks ain’t nothing but character.”
I walked over to her and went to my knees. After kissing her stomach, I backed her to the bed so she could sit, then I traced every stretch mark she spoke of with my tongue. When I glanced up at her, I could see the tears on her cheeks.Damn.“Are you saying you love me, Brix?”
“Yeah. Don’t you love me?”
“Yeah… but—”
I put my fingers on her lips. “No buts. Whether you’re in love with me or not will reveal itself when it’s time. I can feel that you genuinely love me for who I am, and I’m sorry for pushing you away, no matter how short a time that was.”
She nodded and scooted in the bed. I took off my clothes and joined her, pulling her close to me. She laid her head on my shoulder and lightly stroked my chest back and forth with her hand. “Why is love so difficult? I mean… if you love someone, shouldn’t you want to do right by them?”
“Yeah. If they didn’t do right by you, maybe it’s because they didn’t love you.”
“Brix, I feel like it’s my fault. I’m not the most expressive person in the world. I’m like a whole ass nigga. I like to fuck and don’t offer my true feelings. I loved Decklan and never told him. Maybe if he knew, he wouldn’t have cheated on me. If he knew that I imagined myself marrying him, he would have tried harder to be faithful.”
“Naw. That ain’t on you. If you didn’t express your feelings to him, it’s because he never made you feel safe enough to do so. If he was your man, he should have made it easy for you to say how you felt. I want to be that man for you one day. I just hope that you eventually see that Iamthat man.”
She lifted her head and kissed my lips then sat up and took off her bra. “I can’t sleep with this shit on.”
And I can’t sleep with those hard ass nipples on display.I was tripping from her being in her bra and panties. Now she was making it that much harder. I knew I would be sliding inside of her in just a minute. She licked her lips as she stared at me. My eyes dipped to her nipples, and she decided to tease me further by pinching them and moaning. “Jess, you want me inside of you?”
“No. Your mom is here.”
“She’s asleep, and we’re in my bedroom. You got me sitting here fiending for a taste now.”
I grabbed my dick through my boxer briefs and squeezed the head. Jess stood from the bed, and she swayed slightly, like she was dizzy. She was fucked up. Her ponytail swung to her shoulder as she turned around, putting her back to me. When she pulled her underwear off, bending over as she pulled them to her ankles, my dick throbbed more, to the point of being painful. Her pussy was wet as fuck and had spread open for me to drool over.
As she took them off, I went to her side of the bed and sat on the floor behind her. “Jess, come sit that shit on my face.”
She turned to me with her panties in her hand. She glanced down at my dick, so I exposed him for her to see. “You have a big dick, Brix.”
“Mm hmm. And every inch of him wants to be buried inside of you. You cool with that?”
“Yes, but only after you eat this meal. Don’t leave any leftovers, Brix.”
I pulled her to me as she widened her stance and slumped some as I stared into her eyes. She didn’t hesitate one bit as she lifted her fupa and sat her pussy right on my lips. I did my best to clean the plate without wasting a drop. My slurping noises had gotten out of hand because there was so much to digest. I didn’t understand how one woman could flood the area like this. She began sliding her pussy back and forth across my lips and her juices were everywhere but where they should have been… my mouth.
I gripped her ass and held her steady so I could fill up on the greatness she excreted. Damn, she tasted so fucking good. They needed to bottle this shit and sell it in the organic section with the cauliflower pizza and shit. This was the expensive shit that wasn’t watered down with chemicals and preservatives. It was all natural and was taking me on a high like that ganja she smoked a little while ago.
“Briiiix, I’m about to cuuuuumm!” she whispered harshly.