Page 47 of Where Is the Love

I pulled at my shirt, giving him permission to pull it off. He did so quickly and unfastened my bra. When his tongue graced my nipple, my clit hardened, and I could practically feel that shit rubbing against my panties. I grabbed his head as he flicked my nipple back and forth with his tongue. “Oh fuck, Nate. You gon’ make me cum.”

He lifted his head and began pulling at my pants. I gladly lifted my hips, and he pulled them, along with my underwear, off in record speed. I was glad he wasn’t being so tender now. I didn’t need to be in my feelings. This would be a fuck, and I could possibly move on from here like normal. Once my pants were off, he went to my pussy and pushed my legs open wider. I had a moment of déjà vu, remembering the night of the trail ride party over four months ago.

Nate’s mouth covered my clit, and I couldn’t handle it. He was sucking it so good he made me wonder what I needed my rose vibrator for. My hands traveled to his ears, and I held on for dear life as my orgasm ripped through me like a fucking tornado. “Nate! Fuck!”

I refused to leave him hanging this time. My mind was still on Brix, and no matter how hard I tried to swallow thoughts of him, they kept coming back up. My soul was telling me to stop again, but Nate would never forgive me for this shit. He lifted his head, and I pulled him to me. His body slid on top of mine, and I sucked my taste from his lips. “That’s some good shit, huh?” he asked in a low voice.

“Yeah, but I’m sure you have some good shit too. Let me taste it, Nate.”

He went to his knees on the couch as he stared at me. It was like he was expecting me to stop him again. The intensity of his stare was too much for me. I grabbed my nipples and closed my eyes. It felt like he was x-raying my fucking insides, knowing that I was covering up something. When I reopened my eyes, he was standing in front of me in all his naked glory.

This man was so fucking fine. He was hung like a damn mule, and if I wanted it, it could be all mine. I felt that in my soul. Nate wanted me to be his exclusively. I’d known for a while. Was I giving him false hope? Instead of dwelling on that, I sat up and pulled his dick into my mouth. His ass was so tall, his dick was right in my face without me having to lean over to get to it.

When my mouth covered what I could, I put my hand around the base and began stroking him at the same pace I was sucking him. Nate didn’t have a size eighteen foot for nothing. His dick looked to be a foot long. I was nervous as hell, knowing I wouldn’t be able to take all this shit. I may not have been lucky in love, but shit if I wasn’t lucky with dick. Decklan, Brix, and Nate were hung like the stars in the sky.Brixton.

I closed my eyes and shook my head, trying to rid myself of thoughts of Brixton. All that did was cause Nate to bust in my mouth. “Shit!” he yelled. “I’m sorry, Jess. I didn’t ask if that was cool. That shit snuck up on me.”

I allowed some of his nut to run down my chin, then I stuck out my tongue and licked it back up. I massaged what fell to my breasts in my skin as he watched and leaked more. I pulled him back into my mouth and sucked the residuals out of him as his body trembled. “Jessica, fuck! Yeah, baby,” he said as he grabbed my head and began slow fucking my mouth.

He pulled out of my mouth and just stared at me. To convince him I wasn’t backing out this time, I leaned back on the couch and spread my legs then began playing with my pussy. When I brought my fingers to my mouth, he dropped to his knees and rubbed the head of his dick up my slit, covering it with my juices, then stood and brought it back to my mouth. I sucked him clean, then he left me on the couch for a moment.

I assumed he went to get a condom. It was like he was in shock that it was actually going down this time. I was in shock, too, but I knew I was too far gone to change my mind now. I cared about Nate. By the time he came back, he was strapped up and had another in his hand. He immediately went to his knees and pushed inside of me, taking my fucking breath right out of my body. It seemed his breathing went on hiatus too. He allowed his dick to just sit there for a few seconds. The goosebumps had covered his skin and mine. “Fuck!” he yelled.

When he began stroking me, I creamed and squirted every fucking where. “Naaaaate! Shiiit!” I screamed.

He stroked me faster, giving me just what I didn’t know I needed. I knew he wasn’t giving me all of it, because there was no way my pussy could take everything he had to offer. However, I knew I could take more than what he was giving me. “Give me more, Nate. Slowly give me more, baby.”

He bit his bottom lip and leaned over me, pushing more inside of me and stroking me slowly. “Oh my God. I’m about to cum again, Nate.”

He was quiet as fuck as he stared at me… exploring the depths of my soul. I closed my eyes because he was fucking up my nut. He gave me more until I pressed my hand against his chest. He began stroking me again, and I came without warning, just as he had. “Jess, this some good shit, girl. I’m about to nut. Fuck!”

My eyes remained closed as I panted, soaking in the realization of what had just happened. I didn’t regret this, because it was good as fuck, but I also realized at this moment, Nate wasn’t the man I was supposed to be with. Even with as good as sex was with him, my heart didn’t feel it, and I believed he sensed it.

He pulled out of me, and when I opened my eyes, he was staring at me as he strapped up again. I held his stare, and he gave me a tight smile. He lowered his head for a moment then looked back up at me. “Once more, baby. I know this will probably be the last time, so let me make love to you.”

I nodded as I swallowed hard and lay back against the couch cushions. Nate pushed his dick inside of me slowly and stared into my eyes like he was pleading with me to say that he was wrong… that we would be a couple and engage in these types of activities all the time. I couldn’t. I didn’t know how he could tell, but I was glad that he could, because that meant I didn’t have to say it.

His dick touched every crevice of my pussy and had me cumming the Nile. I knew his sofa would need cleaning after this shit. He loved me. No man could make love to me and make me actually feel that shit unless he loved me. I stared into his eyes as the tears sprang from mine and a soft cry left my lips. “I’m so sorry, Nate.”

He bit his bottom lip and was about to pull away from me. I stopped him. “Please don’t stop. I can feel how much you love me. Please don’t stop.”

He leaned over and kissed my lips as he continued to stroke me passionately. I had to be a fool. How would I let him go? Couldn’t I eventually fall for him as he had fallen for me? When he separated the kiss, he went to my neck and shoulder. “Damn, Jess. I fell in love wit’chu, girl. Fuck. What am I supposed to do now, baby?”

His strokes became stronger as my cries became louder. My nails dug into his flesh as he gave me every ounce of love inside of him. Listening to his moans and words of desperation had me crying like a baby but cumming at the same time. I was overwhelmed emotionally, and I didn’t know what to do with myself. “Jess, I’m trying to make this shit last. I don’t want to let go, baby. Shit.”

I pushed him away from me and stood from the couch. I gestured for him to sit, and I straddled him, sliding down his dick at the same time. I couldn’t go all the way down, but I took most of it. I stared at him as the tears continued to escape me and began riding him at a slow pace, trying to make his wish come true and make this shit last.

“Nate, please don’t ever forget me. I care for you so much. This is hard, and it hurts. I don’t want to let go either, but it won’t be fair to you for me to keep holding on if I don’t feel the same way you do.”

He grabbed my ass without responding to me and assisted my ride. I stared at him, but he started to do as I did earlier. He wouldn’t return my gaze. I grabbed his face and turned it to mine and kissed his lips until he came in the latex. He held me close for a while, resting his head against mine. “I love you, Jess. I could never forget you, baby. Promise me that if what you want doesn’t want you back that you would give me another chance.”

“I promise, Nate.”

He held me tight as I relaxed against him, wishing things were different. However, I knew that my heart belonged to Brix. Until we could get that shit straight, or I could get my heart back, I needed to remain single and find my way back to myself before involving anyone else in my bullshit.

CHAPTEREIGHTEEN

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