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Anna: Absolutely nothing. I love you. You absolutely didn’t let that one slip away.

I felt myself deflate.

Me: Don’t do that.

Anna: I’m sorry. Did you at least talk?

Me: I saved him from possible anaphylaxis.I cringed as I hit send.

Anna: What if he bequeaths his first ex-girlfriend something we would have both benefited from? You're making astoundingly bad decisions these days, my girl.

I laughed and could feel my temper slightly beginning to cool at her words.

Me: Thanks I feel better.

Anna: Was he a dick?

Me: Not really. He only remembers I was the one that ended things.

Anna: That’s on you for not telling him why.

Me: So he could deny it to my face and act dumb? He deserves what he got! He didn’t respect me enough to own up to it so I didn't owe him an explanation either.

Anna: I understand.

This didn’t make me feel good. Instead, it left me feeling angry and depressed.

Me: I was really looking forward to this trip.

Anna: You should have listened to me and come on the blind date instead.

Me: You’re no help.

She sent me a bunch of hearts and I reciprocated.

6

LUCAS

As we began to make our descent, I thought about what to do.

Were we to say our goodbyes after this and simply never meet again?

It was for the best, but I couldn’t help but feel absolutely no satisfaction whatsoever from the idea. In fact, I felt almost bitter and even inadequate which was an emotion I had rarely felt in my life. And it annoyed me to no end that she was the one who could make me feel that way. It was too much power held by someone that didn’t deserve it and I wanted to take it back.

I didn’t quite hold an interest in getting entangled with her once again.

It wasn’t that I didn’t want to but that I didn’t see how any good could possibly come of it.

Neither did she seem to hold any interest in reconnecting with me, but then again, she was a woman who loved experiences, and I was now a man with the means to fulfill as many of them as she wished.

As I watched her go through the preparations for landing, and then sit by the emergency door I couldn’t move my gaze away.

The flight made its descent into Luton airport and for a brief moment, her gaze met mine. Just as I expected, she held it boldly for a few seconds and then she turned away.

Shaking my head, I smiled and did the same as I turned to watch the spectacular night city lights.

When we were on the ground I took my time in getting up as I stared out of the window in thought.