Page 64 of Slicer

Just before the end of the session, I finally made a confession.

"I think I now understand why I'm struggling with the guilt so much."

She sits up straight.

For the past two weeks, she has questioned why I feel guilty, and I haven't been able to tell her. I couldn't form the words, but now I can. I clear my throat. "It's the happiness I feel that he's gone, that I pulled the trigger."

She nods and smiles. "And that is a completely normal reaction after feeling happy, Meghan. You're a resident doctor; you tookan oath to heal and save lives, and you went against that in order to protect your daughter, to protect yourself. I’m happy that you've figured it out because that means you're on the next step." I tilt my head at her, and she just smiles wider and says, "Acceptance." I smile back at her. "You accepting that you went against your oath for Lilah; you accepting that you had to be the one to pull the trigger in order to move forward." She closes her book. "I think we can now cut your sessions down from five a week to three; what do you say?"

I nod. "I say that sounds amazing."

She grins and stands. "Alright, I will see you in two days."

I stand and give her a hug before wiping the fallen tear as she whispers, "Perfect breakthrough, Meg."

Taking a deep breath, I leave her house, where we agreed to do the sessions. She only lives one row up in the little housing estate the brothers have built. I had found leaving Lilah a struggle, and when Noah tried to take me out last week, I ended up having a panic attack.

Just as I descend the steps, I look up to see Noah sitting on his Harley, the yellow tank glaring in the sun. His hair is in its usual man bun, but the short back and sides have been shaved back a little bit more. I give him a smile, loving having him meet me after my appointment before I tense and realize who isn't with him.

I start to look around for our daughter before he removes his sunglasses, his hazel eyes watching my every move, making sure I don't have another panic attack, which I feel is coming.

My chest is tightening, and my breathing has quickened.

"Meghan."

I look towards Noah, his tone strong, snapping me back to him. "Our daughter is safe and sound at home with my parents aswell as Mel and Dagger. You and I are going for a ride." I start to shake my head, and he just smirks, "I'm not taking no for an answer, baby. Get your sweet ass on the bike." I swallow hard, and his eyes soften. "We need to get you off Club Grounds Wildcat in order to bring you back bit by bit. I promise you, our daughter is safe. I have a system in place. Everything is okay."

I shake my shaking hands, taking a deep breath. I know he's right; I know we have to do this; I have to do this. Nodding my head with determination, I walk over to him. He grins at me before kissing my lips slightly and then placing a pink and black helmet on my head. I climb on behind him, ensuring my dress is under my ass, and wrap my arms tightly around his waist.

He revs the bike before roaring down the road and out of the open gates.

We spend an hour riding around the back roads, where my muscles loosen and I start to relax. Noah was right; I needed this, and I should have realized that our daughter was safe with his brothers. I squeeze his waist tighter, laying my head on his shoulder blades as he drives through the bendy roads before pulling up at Hudson Lake.

The sun is setting, and it looks perfect.

Noah helps me off the bike before taking my helmet off, then brings both his legs around, standing me between them so I'm leaning against his chest with my back. We watch the sunset well after it's gone and the stars come out. Noah's phone has gone off every hour with one ring, which he explained is his father's way of telling him all is well; it's what helped me relax so much.

Sighing in contentment Noah tightens his arms around my waist, his nose running along the side of my neck, going up to my jaw, where he starts to lightly kiss and nip. My clit starts to throb, and I move my legs, hoping for some friction.

We haven't made love since those who shall no longer be named took our daughter.

I turn my head towards his, our mouths catching each other's as our kiss starts off slow but soon gets more desperate, our tongues tangling. He turns me in his arms, not once breaking the kiss before lifting me up, then spinning us so my ass is on the seat of his bike.

I cupped his cheeks as one of his hands cupped the back of my neck while his other went down between us. He finds my wet lace panties, wrapping his fingers around them while groaning at the soaked fabric.

He tears them from my body, making me gasp before the kiss heats up even more. He runs his fingers through my slit, feeling how wet I am, before he unzips his jeans, pulls his hard member out, and places the head at my entrance. He thrusts in, hard, in one thrust. I gasped, my head going back and breaking the kiss.

I feel full—so damn full.

Noah places his head in the crook of my neck, groaning, while he starts to rub hard circles around my clit while putting pressure on the back of my neck to get me to look at him. As soon as we make eye contact, he moves his hips back before thrusting forward.

Over and over, he thrusts, and I meet each one, my orgasm building while keeping eye contact.

I can feel myself tightening around him as he tilts his hips, hitting my G-spot while his thumb goes faster on my clit. My stomach tightens, and just when I think I'm about to cum, Noah pulls out, making me growl, and he chuckles as he bends down, placing his whole mouth over my mound, taking in my juices. I moan and groan as she shoves his tongue inside me over and over while his fingers keep me on edge, slowly moving his fingersand rubbing my clit. He prolongs my orgasm, playing with me before he sucks my clit into his mouth, and I see stars.

I'm mid-orgasm; I can feel the juices leak from my body when he suddenly stands and slams into me hard, his hips going faster and faster before he pinches my clit. Wetness squirts out of me, making him groan as blackness enters my vision, my whole body shaking from the intense orgasm, both of us cumming together. He continues to move his hips until the effects of my orgasm have slowed down before gently pulling out and kneeling again, his whole mouth going back over my mound, where he groans, tasting both of us together.

Oh wow.