Page 70 of The Trolley Kiss
His hand slaps against my ass. “Mm,” he groans, rubbing my now red asscheek. “I need you. Now.” He yanks me up by my hips and places me on his lap facing away from him. He lifts me up enough to line his cock up before letting me drop down on him, shoving his dick inside of me.
“Oh,” I gasp, letting myself adjust to him before lifting my ass and dropping it back down on him.
He pulls the zipper down on the back of my dress, and I let it fall down my arms. He grabs me and pulls me back against him, helping me move up and down on his cock. “Oh, baby. Fuck.” He pinches and pulls on my nipples while my ass rubs against his stomach. His fingers slide down to my clit, rubbing it in a circular motion.
Just as I’m losing myself to the physical, he makes it personal. He grabs my jaw, pulling it back over my shoulder and crashes his lips to mine. He slips his tongue into my mouth, entangling it with mine. Our bodies move together as one until everything fades away around us and we’re left panting against each other’s mouths, trying to come down from our high.
“Merry Christmas,” I breathe out against his lips. “Now, where’s the food?”
He laughs, grabbing my side and tickling me. “Right. Let’s get to the real reason you’re here. Because I feed you.”
Thursday, Dec. 31
“Ten, nine, eight, seven…”
Declan pulls me in against his chest. “Guess you’re stuck with me for another year.”
I bite my bottom lip. “I guess so.”
“Four, three, two, one. Happy new year!”
Declan grabs me by the back of the head and cups my jaw with his other hand as he lowers his mouth to mine. “Happy new year, princess.”
Thursday, Jan. 7
My heart sinks as I re-read the text from Declan.
Declan:Hey, my college friend is visiting from out of town. Is that okay with you?
I try to remain calm. This isn’t a big deal. I know it’s not a big deal.
My heart pounds against my chest, and I can’t breathe all of a sudden. I can’t control it. The fear. The anxiety.He’s going to leave you.
I squeeze my eyes shut, balling my hands into fists. The holidays are over. He’s been with me for a few months. I couldn’t very well expect him to stick around when I won’t even commit to him.
Isn’t that what you wanted? You set this up to fail from the start so that you have a reason when he inevitably leaves you?
Stop. Fucking stop, Addison!
It’s one week. He’s been here every other week. There’s no reason to read into this. His friend is here from out of town. That’s a perfectly acceptable reason to cancel. You knew something like this would come up eventually.
You knew.
You knew. You knew. You fucking knew. You knew. You knew. You knew…
My legs give out from under me, causing me to fall to the floor. I gasp for air with my face pressed against the carpet. I pull my legs up to my chest and wrap myself in a ball until I calm down. “It’s okay. It’s okay. You’re okay. You’re okay.”
A few minutes later, I inhale deeply, finally able to fill my lungs as I sit back up. I sit there and take deep breaths until I’m back in my right mind. I know logically this shouldn’t make me this upset, but it’s like my body reacts on its own. I can do this. Doesn’t mean I have to be happy about it though.
Me:Yeah, no big deal.
I keep the message short so I don’t say something I’ll regret. I sigh as I stand back to my feet. Well, now I have a free evening. Might as well take advantage of it.
An hour later I’m pouring myself a glass of wine in my bathrobe with a moisturizing facemask on my face. I take a sip of my wine, trying to decide if I should take a bath first or order some food and watch a romcom. I’m feeling much better than earlier. Better than I was expecting to feel.
I go to grab my phone charger from my bedroom when I see my fully charged vibrator sitting there on my nightstand. I pause for only a moment before laying back on my bed and pouring some lube on the suction part of the vibrator.
I spread my legs open wide and run my fingers over my clit before pressing the suction part on top of it. I start at the lowest level, sparks running through my body with every vibration. I don’t know if the frustration from earlier tensed me up, but I’m already ready to explode. I need the relief. I increase the vibration strength higher and higher until I’m on the highest setting. I’m so close to the edge.