Page 108 of Blinded By Hate

Hayden would look over every so often and he would have a wide smile on his face showing me how much fun he’s having.

I can already see Hayden slowly starting to fall in love with Junior. It’s so easy to fall in love with Junior and his unique personality.

Seeing Hayden fall in love with Junior and show his protective side with him makes me want to fall in love with Hayden all over again.

I can’t stop smiling at them but inside I still feel guilty for having them be apart for so long.

I’m trying to make it up to not just Hayden, but Junior as well.

“How’s it going?” Brandon says as he walks up to me.

“Good. Junior is keeping him on his toes.”

Brandon wanted to give us some space in the morning for Hayden and I to tell Junior the news. He told me he would meet us at the aquarium a little bit later, which is now, making me realize how long we’ve been here for and how long I’ve been watching them and following them around.

We ate lunch before coming here. Hayden took us to a nice brunch place down the street from the apartment that he told me he would always go to.

“He looks happy,” Brandon says as he stares at the two of them. “It’s crazy how similar they look.”

“There’s no denying that he’s his son. His personality is also another indicator.”

“Junior looks like he’s having fun.”

He is.

But after all the meetings and hanging out with Hayden, what will happen?

That’s another thing I can’t stop overthinking about.

What will happen with Junior and I? What will happen between Hayden and I and the role he’s now playing?

There is still so much baggage and history that Hayden and I need to talk about and I know that it won’t be a pretty talk.

Hayden still doesn’t know about Junior's condition with his VSD or how he has to take meds.

It’s not a bad thing that he has his condition but Hayden should know.

And what will happen when Hayden eventually becomes more and more involved, especially with his lifestyle?

Do I want Junior to live the kind of life filled with people wondering about your every move or taking pictures everywhere you go?

“I can’t stop staring at them,” I admit. “It’s weird seeing them together. It makes me feel even more guilty with how happy both of them are.”

“You shouldn’t feel guilty,” Brandon says but I don’t take my eyes off Hayden and Junior.

“I know, but after the conversation with Hayden, it opened my eyes to how selfish I was for not letting him know about Junior. I should have told Hayden.”

“You needed time to heal. If you told him, who knows what could have happened. It’s good that you both took time away from each other because that’s what you guys needed. Hayden may not agree because he doesn’t like spending time away from you but he needed that break too.”

“I know. It’s just hard to think that after seeing them together and how good they both are with each other.”

Hayden turns his head to me again and instead of smiling wide it drops and he’s glaring.

Shit.

Brandon.

“He doesn’t look very happy that I’m here.”