Page 61 of Blinded By Hate
Jaclyn
Past
Natalia and I are on our way to school right now. We decided to drive together because I slept over at Hayden’s last night.
This morning, he wouldn’t let me leave the bed. I had to fight my way out of his bed because he wouldn’t let me go. And before I left, I kissed him goodbye. He tried to deepen the kiss and make me stay but Natalia dragged me out of the room.
Natalia right now is talking to me about how Chris is thinking about moving out and playing for the Giants in New York. She and Chris have been talking about plans for what happens after school. I know for a fact that Chris might get drafted for the Giants because he is an amazing player and they have already been talking to him about the opportunity.
Natalia doesn’t mind moving to New York. She says that there are a lot of opportunities out there.
Them talking about their future makes me think about what Hayden and I are doing after school. We haven’t talked about it but with the promise ring he gave me not too long ago, he made it sound like I was here to stay.
He doesn’t want me going anywhere.
I just have no clue what his plan is and he is graduating next year while I have one more year of college.
Will he stay in Arizona with me or move out when he is done with school?
The thought of him leaving me makes me so anxious and scared.
I don’t even want to think about it.
I know for a fact I want to become a sports journalist. I love interacting with people and being a sports journalist can make you some good money.
I would want to live in either New York or California. I love everything about New York, the city, the lights, how loud it is, etc. It just feels so alive but it’s so expensive to live out there. California has the beach which I love. It has perfect weather all around.
Once we get to school, I park the car and cut the engine. Natalia and I get out of the car and I lock the doors.
“Your birthday is coming up. What are you planning on doing?” Natalia asks as we walk towards our building.
My birthday is next week and I have no clue what I’m doing. I haven’t had the time to think about it with all the issues with Hayden and his fights.
Eric has laid low for a while which makes me think something is wrong. The feeling in the pit of my stomach makes me want to throw up sometimes.
“No clue. Maybe hangout with you guys and have dinner?”
“Hayden doesn’t have anything planned?” Natalia asks and I shake my head. He hasn’t mentioned anything and neither have I because I’m sure we will do something small. “Do you have the key card?” Natalia asks as we walk towards the elevator.
I remember I didn’t take it with me. It’s still in the car. I usually keep it in the center console.
“Shit, no. It’s okay, I'll go get it.”
Natalia shakes her head. “It’s fine, we can just take the stairs.”
“You go ahead and I’ll catch up. I have to get the key card because I need it for the library later.”
She nods her head and I turn around and leave the building. I get to my car and unlock the doors before getting in. I look through the center console, trying to find the card when the passenger door opens.
Fear floods through my body as I see Eric sit in the passenger seat and lock the doors. “Get the hell out, Eric,” I say, pushing my back against the door.
Anytime he is around me, it never ends well and the way my stomach keeps making flips makes me nervous as hell.
“Relax, Jaclyn. I’m not going to hurt you. Just wanna talk.”
“Talk to someone else and get out,” I demand.
“Nah, I wanna know how Hayden doing? Are the ribs healing?” Eric asks.