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But I’m not judging.

She probably just likes dancing or something.

We walk inside the main room and the song “Haunted” by Beyonce is playing which is somewhat perfect for a chill vibe but also this kind of environment. It’s kind of sensual and slow which makes it great. There are pink and blue LED lights on the walls and where the bar is.

There are three poles in the middle of the room and sofas surrounding them.

Three guys, who are only in white boxer briefs, with oiled up muscles and props, walk in.

God, what did I just sign up for?

Thirty-One

Jaclyn

Present

This morning I woke up with the worst hangover.

I usually don’t get hangovers but after the club, Natalia and I had an afterparty of our own in the hotel. We smoked a little weed that she got from Max and we were still a little drunk from the club.

I was a wreck this morning. Natalia woke me up saying we had to go to breakfast with everyone since Nicole made reservations.

I had fun last night though. It was definitely an interesting experience going to a male strip club. Nicole got a private dance from one of the strippers and I saw them making out a couple times which I was a little shocked at because I thought she maybe liked Hayden a little or respected him.

I know for a fact that Hayden doesn’t give two shits because he keeps trying to make a move on me.

But they have no respect or love for one another at all.

So then why the fuck are they getting married?

It keeps nagging at my brain as I watch Hayden across from me at the table and Nicole sitting next to him. They aren’t touching one another or looking at each other. Nicole is talking to her friends while Hayden has his eyes on me.

I’m sitting in between Max and Kayden. Martin is sitting next to Max and then Natalia and Chris are sitting next to Kayden. Across is Hayden, Nicole, and her friends.

Hayden looks annoyed, I can tell by the way his jaw keeps clenching.

Meanwhile I’m sitting across from him, wondering so many things because nothing seems to make sense.

This morning I talked to Junior and as usual he always reminds me of Hayden because of how similar they look.

Junior misses me and I told him I’d be back soon and that I miss him. He’s been taking his meds, he told me. I told him that when I come back I’ll have a lot of presents for him that I got here. I can’t help but buy him clothes and everything cute for him.

I love spoiling my boy.

My heart and body aches for Junior because I’ve never been away from him this long. I trust Brandon to watch over him but God, all I want to do is hold him.

Looking at Hayden makes me feel closer to Junior, just because of how similar he is to him.

They are literally twins.

I mean that’s why I called Junior, Junior. He is a mini version of Hayden, looks-wise for now.

“Water, miss?’ the waiter asks, making me look away from Hayden.

“Yes, please. Thank you.” I smile as he pours water.

“How was last night?” Kayden asks.