Page 32 of The Step Don't
“And you thought you might have to step in and protect your little bro?”
Colin winces, but then raises his hand, demonstrating the size with his finger and thumb. “That much.”
I laugh, a big one I have to cover my mouth to stifle.
He beams. “Glad to know my being there didn’t keep you from being able to perform.”
“Nope. It helped, actually,” I blurt out, which catches his attention. “I mean, clearly, I enjoy being watched, so having someone there in person…it made it even better than just with the people online.A lotbetter.”
Fuck, why am I saying this? Am I that determined never to commit another Step Don’t again?
“Even though it was your stepbrother watching?”
I shrug. “Maybe because it was you.”
“What?”
“We get each other. I feel comfortable and safe around you. It felt easy and chill…and hot, if I’m being real. You’re hot. I’m bi. That shouldn’t be a huge surprise.”
I’m downplaying it because I’ve never felt as turned on by Colin as I was when we were doing that, never been thinking about the things I wanted to try with his dick…or what it would be like if he shot that load across me before feeding it to me.Okay, now I’m getting carried away…
“I should be asking whatyouwere getting out of it, unless you’re gonna tell me you were imagining a hot girl going down on you, in which case, don’t hurt my feelings like that.”
Is it weird that I’m nervous Colin would say something like that?
Of course it is! This is all weird.
Colin’s brows jump. “Is that what you think got me to finish?”
“I’m still trying to make sense of that part. I mean, you’re straight. And it was just me and this app. Ithought maybe it was a combination of the voyeurism and it being a sexual thing.”
“It was incredibly hot watching you do that, but I’m wondering if it’s like what you just said. That it was hotbecauseit was you.”
He’s putting it out there, and I shouldn’t be surprised, considering what went down, but I am.
“What do you mean?”
His brows tug closer together. “I was hard because it was you, Ash. I was enjoying watching you enjoy it. It feels…different.”
“I—I—don’t even know what to say to that.”
For as long as I’ve known Colin, he’s been my big straight stepbro, but now between what happened and what he’s saying, I don’t know what to think.
“Aren’t I supposed to be the clueless one between us?” Colin asks.
I really shouldn’t let myself go there. Like, sure, I thought a few times during it that it was all pretty queer, but I know Colin so well, and he tells me everything. If there was any inkling that he was curious, he would have said something to me…his bi bro.
Fuck, here I’ve been thinking about how hot it was, when he could be struggling with this or confused.
“Colin, do you think you could be queer?”
He hesitates for a moment. “Maybe. I saw some gay porn and got hard before, but I figured that’s justbecause it was sex, not because of the guys. I’ve never really thought much about it until today. What’s happening is definitely outside the realm of straight, but again, part of me wonders if it’s just because it’s with you.”
I consider this. “But you’ve talked before about noticing when guys are attractive.”
“I’ve never wanted to jerk off with them before, though. Like I said, I notice things—guys in porn or whatever—and maybe this was simply a physical reaction, but it felt different. That’s the only way I can think to explain it.”
He has a point there. It’s one thing to notice someone’s attractive, another when it makes you question your identity.