Page 127 of Redeeming Heart

I am not going to hide the truth about both their husbands who are very attractive and both bring different masculine elements to the table.

“When last have you spoken to him?”

“A few days ago,”

I wasn’t going to let her know about my phone addiction or that I was turning into a crazy, obsessed, and insecure girl.

“Have you considered what you are going to tell him when he gets back?”

I honestly had no idea what to say to him. I thought about it every single day since he left, but every line I came up with sounded weird and unlike me.

“I kind of hoped you and Camille could help me out with that one.”

“You are overthinking this, aren’t you?” She asked like she knew exactly what I’ve been up to these past few weeks without even being here.

“I wrote every thought down and practiced what I am going to say to him in the mirror-like I would be preparing for a class speech.”

She laughed quite loudly catching Jonah’s attention that has been glued to the television.

“What?” I shrugged smiling.

“I am inexperienced when it comes to relationships and crushes,” Brandon said we were going to talk when he gets home, but he failed to mention what we are going to talk about exactly.

I am aware that he is giving me space to get my mind under control before I rush into things, which I am not ready for.

“Are you still afraid of change?”

Jaylin’s observation skills haven’t failed to surprise me.

“I still have my whole life ahead of me and had this whole plan of what I want to achieve first before even thinking about love. I’m nineteen—turning twenty in a couple of months and I am already starring my future dead in the face.”

Camille and Jaylin have always been aware of my future plans and how hard I worked to achieve them. I rarely thought of boys and relationships because those things didn’t matter to me.

I glanced at the tv screen when Jonah cheered loudly when Brandon got a goal with a quick sweep of the puck.

“I can barely concentrate on my own feelings because they spin out of control whenever he is around,” I admitted turning my gaze away from the game to look at her.

“That’s your heart skipping a beat and catching on fire at the same time.” Jaylin clarified with a pointed and amused stare.

“Last time I checked it’s called love,” She added.

Love

A feeling I never experienced besides the love I express for my friends and family.

Was it love? Or was I jumping the gun?

Maybe my heart was just a bit confused because all of this was new to me.

“Look,” Jaylin began with a sigh, pushing herself upright.

“I even denied my own feelings for Travis—kept rejecting the thought of falling in love, because I just wanted to think of me for a while longer.”

She moved to Los Angeles years ago because she was looking for a new beginning and she felt getting away from where she grew up would help her to overcome her past. She never got the chance to comprehend or think about what she did—almost losing her life because of her own selfishness.

Jaylin was always there for everyone except for herself when she needed a break. It slowly started to consume her and her only option was to move somewhere where her demons won’t follow her.

She got over her past thanks to Travis who stuck around and refused to give up on her.