Page 91 of Love Harder

We didn’t see one another for a week, and history has proven that in dating time, that could equate to someone getting married and divorced in that short time span.

A lot can happen.

And what happened between The Unicorn and I was that he called me on the drive to work every day. He never missed a day. We spoke about everything. He became my voice of reason when I was ready to throat punch someone. And I loved listening to him. He could read his shopping list to me, and I would happily listen.

I knew I was falling for him, and I was powerless to stop it.

He just fit into my world, and I guess I did the same for him.

How did this happen?

I wasn’t lucky in love.

This sort of stuff doesn’t happen in real life. It especially doesn’t happen to me.

But the Unicorn was ready to chase each time I wanted to run.

The morning he came over after not seeing one another for a week is my favorite memory to this day. I was asleep as he had worked all through the night and drove over an hour to my house after he had finished his shift.

He came in quietly, crawled into bed with me, and hugged me into his chest. He kissed my neck as he hugged me so tight, and the gesture touched me in so many ways.

I told him I missed him.

And he said he missed me.

I don’t know what it is about a hug.

Perhaps the feeling of being safe in your lover’s arms.

Or maybe it was because The Unicorn wasn’t overly affectionate, something I had to adjust to because I am the complete opposite, and when my partner doesn’t replicate the touchy feels, I wonder if maybe they’ve checked out.

When speaking to Sparkles and Mötley about this, I realized I am like this because past relationships were based heavily on the physical. I am accustomed to being validated through smutty comments or via sex, but it wasn’t that way with The Unicorn.

However, it still played on my mind that maybe this was a one-sided deal.

If anyone were to ask what my favorite memory is of him and me, it would be that hug.

We spent more time together, our connection growing, yet I forever second-guessed everything.

I had the most amazing man in front of me, and all I could do was look behind. It was beyond frustrating, but I was damaged, and I didn’t expect anything different this time.

But I really tried.

When I wanted to give up, my friends would reason with me all the beautiful things The Unicorn did to show me that he was all in. They were all crushing on him too because they loved me,and to see a man treat their girl the way he was, they couldn’t help but get a little swoony whenever he was around.

The saying rings true that best friends will be as involved in your relationship as you are because they never asked how I was without asking how he was too.

He was wedging his way into our worlds, and although this all sounds like every girl’s dream, deep down, it soon turns into my nightmare.

There is a line I wrote inLOVE HARD, and looking back now, I wonder if this was a sign from the universe because if only I knew.

I’ve learned that good men are like unicorns. Everyone talks about them, but no one actually sees them.

How I was eating my words because I had found my unicorn. I had managed to somehow stumble across a man who was only ever spoken about but never seen, yet there was something missing.

Plot twist?

Yeah, it seems I like to catch myself unawares also.