Page 50 of Keeping Lilith
It had been that thought process that had led her into her only sexual encounter. It had been unsatisfactory. She’d expected it, so she hadn’t complained. But, right now, with what Julian was doing to her, the way her body tingled, she knew this was real passion. This was how it was supposed to be between a man and a woman.
This was real. It wasn’t fake.
Julian’s movements came to a halt when he reached the waistband of the skirt she wore. “May I?” he asked.
This man seeking her permission to remove her clothes blew her mind. Then again, she shouldn’t be surprised. Julian had changed, and while she’d been drawn to the man he’d been at Freedom and Love, this man, hovering above her, was a far better person. “Yes,” she said as she lifted her hips to allow him access to the zipper at the back.
In seconds, her skirt was off, and so were his pants. They were both in their underwear, and it felt as natural as breathing to her. Julian took her hand before laying down beside her. He was being so incredibly sweet, taking his time and she appreciated it, but she was getting impatient. Her need for him was almost out of control, and she wanted the final barriers between them removed.
Again, showing that she wanted this as much as he did, Lilith reached behind her and unhooked her bra, letting the straps fall down her arms before she slipped it off and tossed it aside.
“You take my breath away,” Julian muttered as he cupped one of her breasts.
A moan escaped Lilith as his mouth replaced his hand. His tongue swirled her nipple, and a jolt of pleasure arrowed right to her core when he sucked it deep into her mouth.
Thoughts were impossible, she could only feel. Julian treated her other breast to the same treatment, and when he kissed his way down her belly, she was more than ready to lose her panties. Her fingers hooked into the elastic, but Julian stopped her. “Let me,” he husked out and pulled the thin lace down her legs.
Cool air brushed over her thighs, and a tiny shiver wracked her body. She didn’t think it was noticeable, but a second later, Julian’s warm body was plastered against hers. His hard length resting against her hipbone. She hadn’t even seen him remove his boxers, but there was no mistaking that he had.
Julian pulled her close, his mouth finding hers, and she sank into the kiss, finally getting what she wished for—their bodies aligned.
Lost in the kiss, she startled when his hand slipped between her thighs and brushed her slick folds.
“Do you want me to stop?” Julian asked.
“No!” she practically yelled. “Don’t stop. I want this so much. Make me yours, Julian,” she said a few decibels lower.
“If you are mine, then I’m yours, Lil. This is a partnership.” Julian’s tone was serious, belying the way his eyes flashed blue fire, and his hard cock was pressing deeper into her thigh.
“Yes. I want that,” she said, finding the courage to reach down and grasp his erection. A breath hissed out of Julian, along with a groan as she stroked him.
“Your hand feels so good on me.” Julian thrust a little in her hold, and Lilith wanted him inside her.
Right now.
“I want to feel you in me,” she voiced her thoughts, knowing that she needed to tell him what she wanted.
“And you will, but first, I get to pleasure you thoroughly.”
He shifted down the bed, moving her so that he could position himself between her thighs. Lilith had read about men going down on women during her short-lived freedom, but she’d never had it happen to her.
Nerves assailed her, and as much as she tried to keep herself relaxed, the tension filled her muscles.
“I’ve got you. Do you trust me not to hurt you?” Julian looked up from his position between her thighs.
Not once, during the short time they’d been in this bedroom, had he done anything to suggest that he would harm her. He wouldn’t start now. She knew that deep in her bones. “Yes, I do. I know you won’t.”
He smiled, that beautiful smile that crinkled the corners of his eyes. “That means so much.” He placed a kiss over her center, and her shoulders dropped. The next time he licked her, she sighed. The time after that, she moaned and gave herself over to his ministrations. The way he sucked and licked and kissed her was gentle and hard all at the same time.
A tingling sensation built in her. Unusual but also so welcoming. It built the faster Julian sucked, reaching fever pitch as he inserted a finger in and then pulled it out, only to plunge it again. The combination of his finger and mouth pushed her over an edge she’d never fallen off. Her body shook, and a long, loud moan escaped from her.
“Oh my God, I . . .” She didn’t know what she wanted to say.
Julian kissed her belly, just above her belly button. “It’s only the beginning, Lil.”
He got off the bed, and she almost asked where he was going, but then saw that he’d opened the drawer on his nightstand and pulled out a box and then a foil packet.
Her breath caught in her throat as she watched him roll the condom down his cock. She wanted to touch it more. To learnwhat he liked. Make him lose his mind the way he had made her lose hers.