Page 45 of Knot a Bad Idea

“You’re not good for us.”

“You’re not good.”

Which is the exact same thing he said to April.

Something awful and heavy pulls on my chest, and I’m terrified at the tears that spring to the corners of my eyes.

My throat closes up, but I’m not about to cry like a child.

No, I’m about to swing on Donovan, the person that betrayed me and the woman I love.

I love her.

I love April.

The realization hits me just as Hunter punches Donovan.

I don’t bother to intervene. Let them fight.

I walk away from their brawl, ignoring the sounds of shattering glass and the snarls that fill the air.

I head into the backyard, walking past the furniture and fire pit, and all the way to the greenhouse.

My ears ring.

Someone calls my name.

April and I talked here. She told me about her past, and I held on to every word she said.

I love her.

She thought I wouldn’t want her after she opened up to me, but she was wrong.

I took her hand, knelt before her in the dirt, and told her I chose her.

But she’s not here now.

And after what Donovan said, I’m not sure if she would ever want to come back.

Knowing April, she won’t abandon the contract, but that doesn’t mean she won’t abandonus.

Does she believe Donovan?

Does she think she’s not good for us?

I know it’s pointless, but pacing in the greenhouse, I call her.

She doesn’t answer.

I should go to her.

She can’t truly believe she’s not good for us.

She has to know I choose her. I will always choose her, no matter what.

No matter what Donovan says.

My ears continue to ring, and my chest is still tight.