Page 37 of Forever Found
Instead I made myself get up and change into workout clothes. I’d hit the gym, then order something to eat. I was pissed with Kane and Adam, and definitely thought they were assholes, but I still worried about them. They needed to eat and sleep. Kane had looked almost feral when I walked in and I knew he’d be goingwild with his fears and worries. I decided I’d check in with them after a workout to calm myself down. We were all to blame for Addy needing to get away, so it wasn’t fair of me to lay it all on the two of them.
I was just pulling on a tank top with my shorts and sneakers when my cell started to buzz where I had left it on the bed. I dived for it, seeing ‘no caller ID’ on the screen and answered hurriedly.
“Ash?” I gasped as I got it to my ear.
“No. It’s me,” Addy spoke, and the relief was inexplicable. Just to hear her voice soothed a wild beast that had been roaring within me.
“Addy,” I sighed as I sat up on the edge of my bed and took in a deep breath. “Are you okay, princess?”
“I’m good. I’m sorry if I worried you.”
“You did, but you have nothing to apologize for. I’m guessing you needed some space, huh?”
“Yeah, I guess I did. Kane…he just got to be too much, and seeing Adam, knowing he’s pissed with me. I just had to get away,” She explained.
“I’m so sorry. I’ve been a complete ass too. I should have been here for you.”
“You were busy, Jord. I get that. I was supposed to be helping you withThe Light, and I let you down.”
”Nothing you could ever do would let me down, beautiful. I knew you were struggling. I should have stepped away from the center and been with you, where I belong. I’m as guilty of abandoning you as my bone head of a brother.”
“You didn’t abandon me, and neither did Adam. I understand why he’s avoiding me. He almost died because of me.”
“No, Addy, not because of you. He was shot by those fuckers, and they’re the only ones to blame for that. Adam isn’t avoiding you because he blames you. He’s avoiding you because he blames himself. He thinks he let you down when he allowed you to be taken and that guilt is eating him up inside,” I tried to explain.
“He didn’t let me be taken!” Addy snapped back.
“I know that, but this blame game is kind of Adam’s thing. He did it when out parents were killed and I didn’t get him back for years,” I sighed.
“I don’t want to lose him, Jordan. I don’t want to lose any of you, but it feels like we’re slipping apart,” she whimpered.
“Don’t cry, princess, please. It’s killing me when I can’t be there to hold you.”
“S-sorry,” she sniffled.
“I know things are kind of crazy right now, and I can’t say what will happen with Ad and Kane. I tried to give them a kick up the ass today, but I don’t know it’ll work,” I explained. “But no matter what those asses do, you have me, Addy. I love you, and I don’t plan on going anywhere except to wherever you are. You hear me?”
“I hear you,” she sniffled. “I love you too, Jordan.”
“I’ve let you down these last few weeks. I’m never going to let that happen again. No matter what’s going on in my life, you need to always know that you come first. I’m gonna need some practice at this whole relationship thing, but I can promise you that you will always be my top priority.”
“Stop making me cry,” she sniffled. “I only just made myself stop.”
“Can you tell me what happened earlier? Why did you leave?” I asked carefully.
“Kane, mainly. He called me, pissed off because I’d missed a call from him. I hadn’t even left the house, but he was so angry. I just…I felt like I couldn’t breathe, Jordan.”
“I know, princess. I understand. He’s been a complete jerk lately.”
“I had a flashback. Kane…he said…s-said I was his. It brought back a memory of Hilton saying the same thing and I just…I lost it. Eli found me running for the garage and I begged him to get me out of there. Asher came too. We’re safe.”
“I know you are. I’m not worried now that I know you’re with Ash and Eli. I just miss you, but I totally agree you need some space. Things around here are a mess right now,” I admitted, even if it killed me to think of not seeing her for any longer than we’d already been apart.
“Ash…he said we can take a break…stay here for a while, and I think that’s a good idea. I’m not ready to face Kane and Adam yet.”
“I think it’s a good idea too. Some time out of all of this will do you good. Might even make the two assholes pull themselves together too,” I suggested. I really fucking hoped so, for Addy’s sake. I meant what I said – I was going nowhere. She had me for as long as she’d keep me, but I also knew she loved and needed Kane and Adam, if they could sort themselves out. If they couldn’t, well then I’d just have to work harder to be everything she needed.
“Is Kane really mad?” she asked, nervous, which I didn’t like at all.