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Jordan’s lips crashed over mine, swallowing my moaned cries as he thrust into me once more. His lips were pressed against mine as he gasped in pleasure, his movements slowing and instead turning into slower, short thrusts.

“Fuck,” he gasped as he moved his head to the side enough to get a breath in. We were both gasping and panting, me still lost to the high of my pleasure as he turned his head and kissed me twice. “So fucking perfect, beautiful.”

As I came back to myself, Jordan eased down laying just a little of his weight on top of me, and it felt so good to be pressed beneath him, the both of us twitching from the after effects of our orgasms.

“You can never leave me now,” I uttered as I lay boneless beneath him.

“I’m not going anywhere. You’re screwed if you ever get sick of me,” he laughed.

“Never gonna get sick of you if you keep doing that,” I sighed happily.

“You’re okay?” he asked, sounding more serious all of a sudden. I looked up and met his eyes as I smiled.

“I’m perfect. For the first time, maybe in my whole life, I know I’m right where I should be. No doubts. No worries, Jordan. Just you, me, and this perfect, perfect moment.” I kissed him twice and relaxed when I pulled back to see the small, contented smile on his face. He looked as at peace as I felt and that was what I wanted to see.

“That’s because you were always supposed to be with me,” he told me as he kissed me once more, then he got to his feet and slid off the condom.

“Two secs while I clean up,” he told me as he moved towards the bathroom. I couldn’t do anything but lay where I was, a huge dopey smile on my face. All I felt was happiness and it was wonderful.

Minutes later Jordan walked back into the room, gathering me up in his arms and holding me as he pulled back the comforter and got us both beneath it. He settled me at his side, half laid on him with my head on his shoulder, my arm around his waist and my leg thrown over his. He held me tightly to his side and kissed the side of my head a few times.

“I meant what I said, Addy. You are it for me and I’m never letting you go. No matter what happens you’ll always have me,” he whispered as he seemed to settle in the bed beside me.

“Good because like I already said, I’m never letting you leave me,” I returned as I snuggled even tighter against him.

“Then it’s settled,” he said, sealing the words with a soft kiss. “Get some rest. I’ll be right here the whole time.”

I don’t even know if I responded to that, but I do know it was the last thing I remembered before my eyes closed heavily and I drifted into a peaceful, happy sleep, still basking in the perfection of what had happened between us both.

CHAPTER 19

ADAM

It was late by the time I pulled up outside the house, not that it mattered. Jordan was so pissed with me, we were barely speaking, and Kane was pissed with everyone and everything. I had no excuse to be home without Addy. My whole family was falling apart and it was on me.

I got out of my car and slammed the door way harder than I needed to. It was my permanent state lately – ever since I was released from that fucking hospital – rage. I was so fucking angry with everything and everyone, but the truth was that I was just taking it out on other things and people. All of my anger was truly aimed at myself.

I was a failure. I’d failed Addy and Eli just the way I always failed everyone and I was fucking sick of it. I had tried so hard in the years I’d been clean to be better and do better. I worked hard to protect my brother, and my brothers not by blood -Asher and Eli. Then Addy came along and I wanted her from the moment I saw her. The first time she smiled at me - all shy and nervous, but trying so hard to be brave – I knew she had to be mine. I thought she was my chance at redemption. I thought if I could take care of her and protect her from the evil that had already tried to take her from this world, that I could be a better man this time.Yeah right! That worked out real well, didn’t it?

I didn’t even know what I was doing anymore. Jordan hated me. I’d pushed Addy away. Even Ash was barely speaking to me. I wasn’t doing my job at the house. I barely even worked out. I was a huge disaster and I wasn’t even sure if I cared anymore. I loved Addy, but I wasn’t good enough for her. I would never be the man she needed, nor the man she deserved, and without her I just…I didn’t know anything anymore.

I walked into the house, throwing the door closed behind me. I knew Kane would be back at his place brooding, and Jordan would have eaten and gone to his room as he had every night since we stopped talking. I missed my fucking brother so much, but there was nothing I could do to appease him. He called me out on the way I treated Addy, and he was right. I was an asshole and a coward, but I couldn’t fix it. Addy was better off without me.

I stormed into the living room, headed for the kitchen for some water before I headed to bed, but I froze when I found Asher sat in the armchair beside the lit fire, a glass of scotch in his hand. The house around him was silent and he didn’t even have his cell in his hand like he always usually did.

“Ash? When did you get back? Where’s Addy?” I asked as I looked all around me, just desperate to lay my eyes on her and see for myself she was alright.

“I’ve been sat here for two hours, drinking enough whiskey to try and give me the courage to face what I have to ask you, brother,” Asher said instead, ignoring my questions.

“What the fuck are you talking about?” I snapped as I stepped closer to him. “What’s going on?”

“Where have you been?” Asher asked.

“Out.”

“Out huh? I seem to remember getting that answer a lot after your parents died,” he said, then he threw back the contents of his glass and slammed it down on the side table.

“Ash, where’s Addy?” I asked more desperately. Had something happened? Is that why Ash was acting so oddly?