Page 41 of No Rules
The others joined in the laughter, each man sharing amusing anecdotes from their lives. Caleb complained about Lowell’s habit of teasing him mercilessly until he begged for release, while Burke’s eyes sparkled as he described Wander’s penchant for surprising him with new toys.
Alex mostly listened, though he did share his experiences during his first scene with Master Mark. “I’m still in the early stages of my journey as a sub, so I don’t have your experience yet.”
Burke cleared his throat. “I consider myself a newbie as well. It took me a while to figure out I was submissive and not Dominant, and Wander has been taking things slow with me for that reason.”
Honestly, Alex was surprised Burke was even sharing that much. He seemed to be a very private person.
“So, what does it mean to you guys to be submissive?” Alex asked.
“Submission is different for everyone, I think.” Jonah leaned back in his chair, his green eyes thoughtful. “For me, it’s about surrendering control and trusting my Dom completely.”
“Trust is a big part of it,” Caleb agreed, nodding. “But submission also brings out a vulnerability in me I don’t often show to others. It’s like letting someone see the truest version of myself, even if it’s only for a moment.”
David chimed in, his voice soft yet steady. “I’ve always seen submission as a way to channel my energy and focus. When I submit, it feels like all the noise and chaos of the world fade away, and all that’s left is the connection between me and my Dom.”
Alex took a deep breath. “For me, it’s about discovering my limits and exploring the depths of my desires. It’s an ongoing journey that challenges me yet brings me closer to who I am at my core. But it’s scary.”
David nodded. “Fear is a constant companion for me. Master Jesse is so good at pushing my limits that I often face that internal battle of wanting to submit but being afraid of it at the same time. But Master knows how to push me enough to grow without breaking my spirit.”
Caleb’s eyes twinkled. “Lowell is so attentive and intuitive. He always seems to know what I need before I realize it myself.”
Jonah hummed. “Very true. It’s a little more complicated for me because I have that Dominant side as well, but Lowell seems to sense when I need to let my submissive side out. He has this amazing ability to make me feel seen and valued.”
“Being with Wander,” Burke said, his gaze distant and thoughtful, “is like having someone who understands every part of me. He can read my mind, anticipate my needs, and guide me toward my growth.”
Alex thought of Ryan, how his gruff exterior concealed a tender side no one else saw. Their relationship was still evolving, complicated by Ryan’s refusal to embrace his role as a Dom. But there was something about their dynamic that felt undeniably right.
“What about you, Alex?” Caleb asked. “You and Ryan seem to have some serious chemistry.”
Alex swirled the wine in his glass as he considered the question, searching for the words to describe their unique dynamic. “He’s…intense, passionate, and rough. But there’s also this surprising tenderness beneath it all. It’s like he’s testing me, pushing my boundaries while still somehow protecting me from myself. It’s…complicated.”
“Complicated can be good.” Caleb gave him a reassuring smile. “It means there’s room for growth and exploration.”
“Or it can be scary,” Jonah added. “But that’s okay too. You’re pushing your boundaries and getting outside your comfort zone.”
“I don’t know where things will go. Ryan is… He’s not an easy man.”
Caleb snorted. “That’s an understatement. The man can fuck though.”
Alex grinned. “That, he can. No offense to Jesse and Lowell and even Master Mark, but none of them can hold a candle to Ryan.”
David sighed. “I have to agree, but I haven’t had the privilege for a while, unfortunately. He hasn’t sought permission from Master Jesse to use me in a while.”
“Same.” Caleb shrugged. “Not sure why, but it is what it is.”
Alex frowned. Ryan hadn’t had sex with Caleb or David recently? “What about you?” he asked Jonah, who shook his head.
Huh, weird. Ryan had shown enough libido with Alex. Did that mean the man was exclusive? That was a heady feeling, but he squashed it. Nope, he shouldn’t allow himself to go there. It was probably a temporary thing. Nothing to attach too much meaning to.
Although he hadn’t sought out anyone else either, not since the scene with Master Mark. And come to think of it, they hadn’t asked for his services either. Jesse and Lowell were pretty reliable in approaching him, but they hadn’t. Strange.
“Master Mark, on the other hand…” Caleb fanned himself. “Now there’s a man with a sex drive. And a fantastic cock.”
“Lowell’s is nice too. It’s not as long, but it’s thick,” Jonah said.
“Sex with Wander is like coming home.” Burke’s eyes shone with love, and for a moment, they all stared at him.
“You’re not talking about sex,” Alex said softly. “You’re talking about making love. That’s on a whole different level.”